Wouldn't you be committed to the psych ward for doing that?
I don't think any pscyh ward in the UK would take me - as there are so many suicidal people out there. They would only take me if I had attempted/was attempting IMO. I've met one crisis team once, and they were bemused, as they really didn't think I was a serious enough case to be admitted anywhere. I also did not think I was - it was just a social worker I knew put pressure on my GP.
If my family tried to put me in there, it would make me frankly more decided that I want to go.
I don't know if it's helping my family or not to be prepared. My mum is hating it. But it is just simply my truth and I would rather talk about it first, then just do it and shock everyone. Also I really want to feel people have had a chance to say goodbye to me.
I want to write a note but I don't know what to say. So I'm probably not going to leave one.
There are examples online and on this forum which might be helpful. I've also seen some people share their notes on this forum for comment.
Some of the comments were a bit harsh perhaps (though that was to someone CTB who had a child, and I think people were trying to help them shape the note in the interests of their child)
My naughtiest pre-death task is an email to an old ex-boyfriend who I loved, and who split up from me. It isn't blaming him, it's just letting him know in advance, so he doesn't hear on the grapevine. partly as his father CTB. It just feels somehow like a better thing to do then him hearing on the grapevine, because of his history. I don't think it is a revenge email, I am mainly over the relationship. It isn't seeking direct attention, as I don't want him to reply under any circumstances. However, this does feel like the oddest pre-death to-do task on my list.
