suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
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I am not homeless, but I'm kinda living paycheck to paycheck. I am lucky enough to have a good job and good health, so I might dodge the bullet. The thought of homelessness always hunts me. 'What if'...
I used to say that if shits hits the fan I will just ctb.. Now I now I do not have that it takes for it. So I am hanging by a thread.
What puzzles me is the idealized situation of homelessness in early history. Diogenes supposedly lived a very good live, mocked the king, teased people and was very satisfied with his condition. I wouldn't mind living like a hobo carelessly in some Greek town where it's never cold, where people would give me food and leave me alone, while I utter cynical witty stuff. But what I learn nowadays about the homeless is always stories of abuse, theft, sickness, violence, etc. I wonder:
1. Is Diogenes more myth than reality? If he's real, was it the system that protected him, like guards on the street etc, making is cynicism a bit ironic?
2. Is there any place on earth left for modern day Diogeneses to go to?
I would at least like to know in the back of my head that there is a plan B, that I'm not completely screwed if I lose my job/health, that there is a place where I can travel with my last dollars, put down my backpack and live without fearing violence, starvation or tragedy.
I used to say that if shits hits the fan I will just ctb.. Now I now I do not have that it takes for it. So I am hanging by a thread.
What puzzles me is the idealized situation of homelessness in early history. Diogenes supposedly lived a very good live, mocked the king, teased people and was very satisfied with his condition. I wouldn't mind living like a hobo carelessly in some Greek town where it's never cold, where people would give me food and leave me alone, while I utter cynical witty stuff. But what I learn nowadays about the homeless is always stories of abuse, theft, sickness, violence, etc. I wonder:
1. Is Diogenes more myth than reality? If he's real, was it the system that protected him, like guards on the street etc, making is cynicism a bit ironic?
2. Is there any place on earth left for modern day Diogeneses to go to?
I would at least like to know in the back of my head that there is a plan B, that I'm not completely screwed if I lose my job/health, that there is a place where I can travel with my last dollars, put down my backpack and live without fearing violence, starvation or tragedy.