Is suicide really the only way

[First loss]

I know pro lifers will say that it isn't. Is that true though? I tried fixing my life. I don't want much. Yet I always fall. Few days ago, I got a chance to repair my life. I did my best and failed and I am again here.

I want to be loved. I want to have someone. I don't want to be a dumb failure and I want to be at least a bit sucessful. Is this too much to ask for?

I fail at having each and every thing I want. I'm such a retard.

It seems that this is the only way for me and the more I delay it the more painful it gets.

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I don't think it's the only way for some people, but it's up to you to decide if it is for you or not.
Personally, I couldn't complain about my life. Honestly, on paper it's perfect for lack of a better word. I have no reason for wanting to kill myself, but for some reason I just want to be dead more than anything. Even when I'm "happy" all I can think about it ending my life and how to do it.
Things can be perfect, but sometimes it's the shit going on in our heads that make us feel like ending our lives. Not even just the things we say to ourselves, sometimes it's just how you're made.
I'd say try everything you can, exhaust all resources. It sounds to me like you really want another option, and I hope you find it. There are many things for you to try to improve your life and get into a better place, and I hope your mental health allows that to be a viable option for you. May you find the peace you're looking for, in life or in death.

 

[21Neberg]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I really am. Suicide is not the only way though - in my opinion it never is. However, I do believe that if one has tried to fix their life or to get better from mental illness but failed that suicide is not weird to consider. Don't let this site convince you that suicide is the only way - suicide is permanent, and it is nobody's decision but yours to make.

 

[bigj75]

No. Some people get second chances if they work hard for it. But not everyone.

 

[Mybattle]

Wish it wasn't but it is either that or be tortured and wait for a miracle..

 

[throwaway123]

That's up to you to decide.

 

[Edge]

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, I agree that suicide isn't the only answer but also everyone has a right to make their own decision. I relate to that feeling of having the chance to make things right & failing. It makes me feel like I'm not supposed to be here, or that I'm just weak & not able to withstand normal life. But I do feel that it's good to try as many other options as feels right, just so you can know at the end that you played all your cards

 

[LivingToLong]

The only way? No, of course not. Some people are naturally content and can rise to and above the inevitable challenges that life offers. Even quite severe challenges. I admire such people, they are made of stern stuff.

Me, I'm too tired. Like many, I have good days and bad days. On the bad days, I may as well be dead. I'm demotivated, dull and lifeless. On the good days, I'm aware that it is a temporary state and I will fall again. I'm aware that I have no desire to do anything, that there is nothing of real value ahead for me. I'm too tired to lift myself these days. Been there, done that.

 

[Broken]

I know pro lifers will say that it isn't. Is that true though? I tried fixing my life. I don't want much. Yet I always fall. Few days ago, I got a chance to repair my life. I did my best and failed and I am again here.

I want to be loved. I want to have someone. I don't want to be a dumb failure and I want to be at least a bit sucessful. Is this too much to ask for?

I fail at having each and every thing I want. I'm such a retard.

It seems that this is the only way for me and the more I delay it the more painful it gets.

What gave you a chance to repair your life? Even if it didn't work out.

 

[First loss]

What gave you a chance to repair your life? Even if it didn't work out.

I'd really hate to sound like an edgy retarded teen so i'd rather not go into detail. It was a demon I invoked that helped me. (I know that sounds unbelievable and dumb)

 

[ron_g]

I think you need someone intelligent and more experienced in life who guides you and discusses your situation with you in greater detail. Otherwise you can only do a trial-and-error and might give up unnecessarily early. You probably can improve your life to some degree and you may be able to get some of the things you want but not all.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Maybe it's not the only way, but I'm convinced it's mine.

 

[Ch92921]

for me the only way

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Well when you have chronically illnesses like me that only get worse every year from I was 15 (turning 25 next month) then yeah suicide is the only choice.

 

[YukiFox]

Always we'll find a excuse to tell us or others that isn't the only way. But from the last year and above, I accept it as a strong possibility for me. I'm not on unbearable despair yet, but I could be. I think that every person has the right to decide to proceed whatever they want to their lives if can't hurt or kill others on the process. Then, if it's a private act, or with other person, I respect their decision as long as I want to respect mine to end with my life.

 

[iiii5555]

Yes.

 

[Broken]

I'd really hate to sound like an edgy retarded teen so i'd rather not go into detail. It was a demon I invoked that helped me. (I know that sounds unbelievable and dumb)

Did the demon actually help though because you said you failed?

 

[Othermind]

For some, yes.
Last year was the last shot I gave it, went to therapy for about 6 months because of my excruciating guilt with little to no results. Therapist was nice enough, even though it seemed like he barely listened to me at times. It is true I refused to take any drugs but I don't think they would have made much of a difference. I also talked to some close friends and all they said was "It happens"...yeah.
I mean, I guess someone with a stronger will than mine could live out his days feeling like a monster and a piece of shit, cutting himself at OCD levels and drinking himself stupid every other day, that's not me, though, another year tops is all I can take.

 

[Broken]

For some, yes.
Last year was the last shot I gave it, went to therapy for about 6 months because of my excruciating guilt with little to no results. Therapist was nice enough, even though it seemed like he barely listened to me at times. It is true I refused to take any drugs but I don't think they would have made much of a difference. I also talked to some close friends and all they said was "It happens"...yeah.
I mean, I guess someone with a stronger will than mine could live out his days feeling like a monster and a piece of shit, cutting himself at OCD levels and drinking himself stupid every other day, that's not me, though, another year tops is all I can take.

I know what it's like to 'feel like a piece of shit' or as I put it 'hate myself' I'm still hopeful that one day none of what I've done will matter because I've moved on and am happy.

 

[Othermind]

I know what it's like to 'feel like a piece of shit' or as I put it 'hate myself' I'm still hopeful that one day none of what I've done will matter because I've moved on and am happy.

Good luck, man, I hope you get better.
I mean it.

 

[Broken]

Good luck, man, I hope you get better.
I mean it.

Thanks mate.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Because Pro Lifers act like suicide decision-wise involves them when in reality it doesn't. The only one who truly knows if suicide is the only way or not is the suicidal person itself.

 

[TAW122]

I think it can be the only way for those who have exhausted many options to solve their problems and are unsuccessful. By that I mean trying many solutions and the problems either persist, gets worse, or people get tired of continuing to 'cope' with this existence called life.

 

[First loss]

I think you need someone intelligent and more experienced in life who guides you and discusses your situation with you in greater detail. Otherwise you can only do a trial-and-error and might give up unnecessarily early. You probably can improve your life to some degree and you may be able to get some of the things you want but not all.

True. I have no one to talk to though.

Did the demon actually help though because you said you failed?

Demon gave me a chance. Lilith altered the reality in such a way I met a nice cute girl in pure coincidence. Also two years older then me, senior.
I really tried this time, but she doesn't like me. I dressed in my best clothes today and she had this "ew" look on her face.
I'm a lost cause.

Today, I asked Lilith to help me kill myself and be more brave and just go on with it.

I think it can be the only way for those who have exhausted many options to solve their problems and are unsuccessful. By that I mean trying many solutions and the problems either persist, gets worse, or people get tired of continuing to 'cope' with this existence called life.

I am not able to cope. Problems just keep coming to me.

 

[reveriewong]

Good question.

No, suicide is not the only way. You tried something and it didn't work out. Try something else. If you want to work on your life, choose the smallest thing that you can do well, and work on that first. Little steps. Be careful not to try to tackle too many things at once, because that gets overwhelming.

Remember, suicide is permanent. It's forever. There's no coming back from it. Work on bettering one part of your life, and you can move from zero to one.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

No its not
But God's taking too long over here and im getting impatient.
Perhaps some can endure and overcome. That isnt gonna be me though unfortunately.