Is SN right for me?

[3FailedAttemptss]

Hey, so I was actually planning on already having bought my SN a few days ago on payday - turns out I didn't do my research well enough and the supplier I wanted to buy from wasn't really able to ship internationally. Anyway so then I have to go looking for DMC since it appears many have had success with them, well actually finding DMC didn't take that long. Now I'm just having difficulty buying the SN - tried using crypto but turns out I can't exchange USDT in my region, so now I just have $100 in crypto I can't use. So I'll have to figure something out before I try buying the SN again (any recommended checkout method?)

All this delay has got me thinking whether or not SN is for me. I ask this because I am quite impulsive with my attempts (I know this isn't ideal and maybe puts me in the minority on this site), I prefer it this way - I suppose I'm just adverse to commitment. I just attempt when I feel sufficiently bad and have the means, this is actually what sparked my interest in SN since I can just have it kicking around for the next time I feel sufficiently bad - which I know will happen and has already since looking at SN.

I suppose my apprehension stems from the need for a protocol which I dont feel meshes too well with being spontaneous and I feel like I've read many different variations on the protocol some with more or less steps. So I guess I'd just like to know what the odds are if I am just impulsive with SN or what I should do at the very least or if I should consider other means (I wish I had access to a gun).

 

[opheliaoveragain]

You need to at the very least fast in my opinion. I know there are some mixed reports.

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

I plan to fast and fingers crossed that's enough without AE. Also some benzos.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

You need to at the very least fast in my opinion. I know there are some mixed reports.

I posted this quite late, upon reading my post again and your comments, I realize I accidentally omitted something that may be rather important. That is after my previous attempts and getting out of the ward, I now live with my mother and sister (both of which don't leave the house much). Does this change anything? I obviously don't want them to notice me dying until I'm beyond saving. As such, would SN still be compatible with my more impulsive approach to attempting?

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Just gonna bump this cause it's pretty important to me (●´ω｀●)

 

[Forever Sleep]

You've obviously done your research in that SN is most effective when a protocol is followed, including fasting and antiemetics. It's not that it absolutely won't work without them but it seems like it's more risky that way. It's also other things people do impulsively that seem to cause problems- not bothering measuring the SN or water- just swigging some random amount. Suddenly deciding to do it following a big meal or alcohol. Doing it at a time they'll likely be interrupted.

I think the recommended time not to be found in could be 4-6 hours- check that though. I think we all hope we'll pass out quickly but I'm not sure it actually always kills that quickly. Vomiting is also very common it seems like. Even with antiemetics so, I think people living with others who are actually in the house are nervous about this.

There's lots of information and accounts of SN here though- so, I'd advise you to do more research yourself in order to feel more comfortable in making a decision.

 

[rozeske]

If you feel that your impulsiveness works against you in attempting when you aren't really ready to go, I'd highly advice against having SN lying around. It's very simple to drink it and go. It's quite lethal and easy to die from accidentally or even when protocol isn't properly followed. But if you feel sure about your decision, you should be ok to have it around and use the window of your impulsiveness to an advantage to cobalt SI.