Venting Is now the time?

[willitpass]

The title is a rhetorical question. I know I am the only one to answer that. But I am currently debating if today is the day. I've had my full suspension plan and location planned for months now, probably coming up on a year. However I have long since decided I will not pick a date ahead of time (maybe a week in advance at most). It's just too much pressure. I will do it when it feels right. And I have had multiple days feel right in the past week. The only thing holding me back since my last attempt is if I fail, I will loose everything worth living in my life and be sectioned again. But I think I have a fool proof plan. I'm tempted to do it today or tomorrow. I think I will go write my letters now.

 

[MrDarkness]

Best wishes if you do decide to go through with it.

 

[90starve]

wishing you the best with your plans.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb is certainly what sounds so awful to me as well, I wish that suicide was much easier but anyway I wish you the best and I hope you find the freedom you search for when the time is right for you to leave.

 

[day]

Sorry the previous attempts have failed.. I hope you manage to find a safe and peaceful exit OP.

Best wishes.

 

[willitpass]

I'm writing my letters right now and realizing I don't even have enough energy to bother with this. I wrote one to my dad, the most important person in my life, and have since realized I don't know what to write to other people.