Discussion Is my suicide just destined to happen?

[Jiggers334]

I've done so much for the last few months like improving my self image, getting into a romantic relationship, improving grades, making friends and ect but somehow, even after receiving Praise/Love and whatever, it all still feels meaningless to me and I still come back here to look for suicide methods or read posts occasionally.

 

[Flume]

This doesn't go away over one day, what you have written is a huge improvement and you will notice it over time. Start off with a solid foundation, that romantic relationships could be one for example, and then build from there

 

[Jiggers334]

This doesn't go away over one day, what you have written is a huge improvement and you will notice it over time. Start off with a solid foundation, that romantic relationships could be one for example, and then build form there

thank you, I'll try to keep an optimistic view of my future bc it's been like this for a few months now and I don't really feel anything and all I do is constantly look for some kind of stimulant.

 

[Mizzmini45]

Yea I been there done that. Lovely distractions. I get all motivated then after a while I'm back to suicide. I wish u luck atleast your trying

 

[elizabeth.luck]

If you have the strength and momentum to improve things, do it! This is an interesting place to hang out even if you aren't 100 percent sold on killing yourself.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I was always destined to commit suicide. I just tried distracting myself since I was a kid till I could find a reliable method and the means to be alone so I can succeed without interruption.

 

[porfin1234]

Not sure if you were asking for advice but
Keep going forward. It's okay if you have suicidal ideation.. but don't stop doing what helps you. Stay there. Once you get momentum going... if you stop it'll be that much harder. I don't want to project but, I was where you are last year and managed to self sabotage all my improvements and back to zero. Maybe there's some discomfort for you as there is for me in being healthy because you're not used to it. So I would acknowledge the thoughts but, they are just thoughts - acknowledge, and keep going.

Meditation and nature always helped me feel more grounded among all the other things I was getting involved with so maybe that will give you some insight into what feels right for you.

I know we are all different though.. so take my opinion with a grain of salt.