I know it could never be enough, but can it help?
I don't feel like leaving a note but if it would help my mum cope I think I'd do it
I feel so bad thinking of everything she'll go through but at the same time I can't live for another person and I know I'm a burden to her as well
I'm in the same exact situation my mom is 81 and it absolutely shatters my heart the pain she'll go through but her seeing me depressed for so long is hurting her feelings extremely.
About the note, I also wonder if it's better not to, for 2 reasons, one I keep thinking of how much it will hurt her reading it and realizing how much suffering I have as in and I don't know why but I imagine her reading it over and over, and the second reason is because of the raw emotions, the pouring out of emotions.
I know that once I start writing it to her it'll absolutely tear my heart apart, thinking of her, I don't think I'll get through the first sentence, so I'm afraid that will stop me.
I know this is probably of no help but you're not alone, I'm wondering the same thing myself, will it hurt or will it help.
I wish I had an answer for you, I'm really sorry