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lostlove
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- Aug 20, 2024
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i am planning to go to bolivia to ctb.
i would like to say goodbye to my first love. i believe it is safe to do this as he will most likely be asleep given the time difference and would wake up to my message.
however he does sometimes have a weird sleep schedule and there is a small chance that he would be awake and see the message.
i'm not sure if its wrong to send it in the first place. i feel there is some small part of me that is hoping to be talked out of it and maybe it is manipulative to be saying goodbye in the first place?
but at the same time i really do feel there is nothing left for me. i believe this to be the most rational decision possible given how my life has gone up until this point. i'm just a little bit afraid.
and it feels weird to leave without saying goodbye. we are living in different countries and only speak once a month or so now. it is quite possible he would never know if i don't say goodbye.
i would like to say goodbye to my first love. i believe it is safe to do this as he will most likely be asleep given the time difference and would wake up to my message.
however he does sometimes have a weird sleep schedule and there is a small chance that he would be awake and see the message.
i'm not sure if its wrong to send it in the first place. i feel there is some small part of me that is hoping to be talked out of it and maybe it is manipulative to be saying goodbye in the first place?
but at the same time i really do feel there is nothing left for me. i believe this to be the most rational decision possible given how my life has gone up until this point. i'm just a little bit afraid.
and it feels weird to leave without saying goodbye. we are living in different countries and only speak once a month or so now. it is quite possible he would never know if i don't say goodbye.