is it wrong to say goodbye when i ctb?

[lostlove]

i am planning to go to bolivia to ctb.

i would like to say goodbye to my first love. i believe it is safe to do this as he will most likely be asleep given the time difference and would wake up to my message.

however he does sometimes have a weird sleep schedule and there is a small chance that he would be awake and see the message.

i'm not sure if its wrong to send it in the first place. i feel there is some small part of me that is hoping to be talked out of it and maybe it is manipulative to be saying goodbye in the first place?

but at the same time i really do feel there is nothing left for me. i believe this to be the most rational decision possible given how my life has gone up until this point. i'm just a little bit afraid.

and it feels weird to leave without saying goodbye. we are living in different countries and only speak once a month or so now. it is quite possible he would never know if i don't say goodbye.

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

i would like to say goodbye to my first love. i believe it is safe to do this as he will most likely be asleep given the time difference and would wake up to my message.

however he does sometimes have a weird sleep schedule and there is a small chance that he would be awake and see the message.

i'm not sure if its wrong to send it in the first place. i feel there is some small part of me that is hoping to be talked out of it and maybe it is manipulative to be saying goodbye in the first place?

I definately dont think its wrong to say goodbye to someone. If you choose to CTB, then there is nothing wrong with giving someone you care about a final goodbye because often times people who live on after a suicide wish that had just one more thing. Even just a simple goodbye. Now if you are worried about them maybe intervening because you send the message, then thats a different story but either way. Its your choice. You should do what makes you happy. I have tried so hard to stop living under other peoples expectations because I have my whole life, and instead I do what I feel is right. Hope this helps.

 

[null_blank]

There are time delay message services and I'd say to aim to send it at least a day after you plan to ctb. It doesn't need to be right at the second you expect to board.

I think a lot of people make the mistake where they don't account for different time zones and things like that and are rescued.

If you speak so infrequently, does it matter if it's a minute or a day? And if they so happened to see someone else say you've gone but your message shows up later, wouldn't that make them feel especially thought of and special?

It would me.


Safe travels c:

 

[lostlove]

There are time delay message services and I'd say to aim to send it at least a day after you plan to ctb. It doesn't need to be right at the second you expect to board.

I think a lot of people make the mistake where they don't account for different time zones and things like that and are rescued.

If you speak so infrequently, does it matter if it's a minute or a day? And if they so happened to see someone else say you've gone but your message shows up later, wouldn't that make them feel especially thought of and special?

It would me.


Safe travels c:

problem is we communicate using whatsapp and snapchat since we are living in different countries now and i'm fairly certain neither has delayed message send options

 

[null_blank]

You'll just have to ask for their email or something :/

 

[lostlove]

You'll just have to ask for their email or something :/

i do have his email i hadn't considered this option