Discussion Is it stupid to be worried about internal organ damage when I want to die?

[SHThrowAway213]

Alcoholic here, and I self harm by overdosing since I was 22.
Stabbing pain in sides getting worse, mostly my left side of the past few weeks yada yada yada, worried I've done permanent damage.
I don't think it's that stupid, I mean I want to die, not make my quality of life worse b
Y dealing with organ damage.
But on the other hand of I have, it is the perfect opportunity to die so I also don't think I should be that worried.
I'm at a loss here, and was wondering what other people thought.
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[voyager]

No, not stupid at all. I think you should have it checked out. That way you'll stay in control and can decide on your own terms when you've had enough. Only exception I'd imagine is loved ones who might take your death by illness better than your suicide, but even then you're probably better off knowing what's going on.