Is it selfish to miss somebody who's ctb when you want to do the same?

[CyanideSoup]

I feel like I don't have the right to grieve my friend who ctb a year ago. I miss her deeply and even though I knew it was a possibility (we met in the psych ward) its devastated me. I just hope she is in a better place now and I hope it was peaceful.

My family keep using my greif against me. Saying how I can I feel hurt by her ctbing if I want to do the same. I feel like I'm not allowed to miss her because I want to die too. And then I feel awful because part of me wishes I had her strength to do it. I'm just a hypocrite

 

[trynacbt]

No, it isn't selfish, just human... I lost my mother to ctb earlier this year. I never blamed her for it, because I understood so well. But of course sometimes I wish she hadn't done it. Still, I'm glad she is resting. And while I know my ctb will hurt those I love, I now also know they will be strong enough to continue. Because life goes on.

 

[Flume]

Your family can go fuck themselves then... no your not greedy you are just acting like a normal human being. Greed until you feel strong again. Loosing someone is the most painful thing any human can experience ever. Take your time, do what you want, fuck everyone else.

 

[Reyki6667]

Wha, fuck your hypocrite parent,
When you lose someone who is important from your memories and miss their presence it's only natural to grieve.
Your parents are utterly selfish.