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Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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This is only a rhetorical question. I think the answer depends on the individual and on the circumstances. As many of you probably already noticed I talk a lot about my past, my abuse/bullying, my pain, my current mental state, my conditions etc. on this forum. For me the clear answer to the question of the title is: Yes it is really helpful and really essential to stay stable. Though I think for other people it might be a better approach to leave the painful memories behind and concentrate fully on recovery/ the present. I think one must decide considering the circumstances and the personality of the human being we talk about.
I had this thought on mind when I listened to Juice WRLD. He raps
Traumatized from my past, yeah, I keep a log
In my mind, in my head, where that shit belong
Maybe my interpretation is wrong. But it sounded like keep it low with your demons they are only in your head. Don't give them so much room. Maybe it is a wrong interpretation but it gave me the idea for this thread. Lol.
Then I remember something similar. When I was in the psych ward the last time there was a dude with a drug induced psychosis. He really was not the brightest person. He mocked us (our self-help group at the clinic) for always talking about our illnesses. He alluded we were obsessed about it and we should just forget about it and move on. Yeah if I had like 2 brain cells (like him) I could do that you clown.
Though it is something I still remember. I ruminate a lot, I am a person with a lot of daily racing/fast thoughts. I absolutely cannot turn this off. It is against my nature. Some people in this forum envied it that I am never bored. I always know what I could do next. I have a lot of different hobbies. But the price I have to pay for that is a hyperactive brain which can torture me with my racing thoughts and torturous ruminating.
I get a lot of advantages if I write here about my emotions and horrible past. It comforts me not being alone with my severe longterm suicidality and traumatas. My biggest benifit is the following. I am very self-reflective when I write here. I evaluate my mood which is really important in order to stay stable. The feedback I get is really helpful for me. It is a help for me to assess how and when I need emergency medication. And it is really like a valve.
My traumatas will shape my thinking as long as I live. I have come to terms with some of them. But they are influencing my behavior still in a severe way. There are things that just became pathological. I can analyze my behavior to a certain degree and I try to develop strategies to cope with them but I cannot turn them off. Leaving them behind is just no viable option for me. If I did that I would just become unstable again due to my obsessive behaviors. I always have to be reminded about my manic side and that I don't want to get manic again.
Then there is this saying your illness must not determine your life. I think this is kind of cyncial. My whole thinking and brain is shaped through my brain. I cannot change that. I only can try to find strategies how to cope with them. But ignoring them instead makes it way way worse.
Yeah that are my 50 cents on it. This is as I said my personal experience with it. For other people something else might be better. I tried to find it out also with the help of my therapists. Yeah they motivated me to keep trying.
I had this thought on mind when I listened to Juice WRLD. He raps
Traumatized from my past, yeah, I keep a log
In my mind, in my head, where that shit belong
Maybe my interpretation is wrong. But it sounded like keep it low with your demons they are only in your head. Don't give them so much room. Maybe it is a wrong interpretation but it gave me the idea for this thread. Lol.
Then I remember something similar. When I was in the psych ward the last time there was a dude with a drug induced psychosis. He really was not the brightest person. He mocked us (our self-help group at the clinic) for always talking about our illnesses. He alluded we were obsessed about it and we should just forget about it and move on. Yeah if I had like 2 brain cells (like him) I could do that you clown.
Though it is something I still remember. I ruminate a lot, I am a person with a lot of daily racing/fast thoughts. I absolutely cannot turn this off. It is against my nature. Some people in this forum envied it that I am never bored. I always know what I could do next. I have a lot of different hobbies. But the price I have to pay for that is a hyperactive brain which can torture me with my racing thoughts and torturous ruminating.
I get a lot of advantages if I write here about my emotions and horrible past. It comforts me not being alone with my severe longterm suicidality and traumatas. My biggest benifit is the following. I am very self-reflective when I write here. I evaluate my mood which is really important in order to stay stable. The feedback I get is really helpful for me. It is a help for me to assess how and when I need emergency medication. And it is really like a valve.
My traumatas will shape my thinking as long as I live. I have come to terms with some of them. But they are influencing my behavior still in a severe way. There are things that just became pathological. I can analyze my behavior to a certain degree and I try to develop strategies to cope with them but I cannot turn them off. Leaving them behind is just no viable option for me. If I did that I would just become unstable again due to my obsessive behaviors. I always have to be reminded about my manic side and that I don't want to get manic again.
Then there is this saying your illness must not determine your life. I think this is kind of cyncial. My whole thinking and brain is shaped through my brain. I cannot change that. I only can try to find strategies how to cope with them. But ignoring them instead makes it way way worse.
Yeah that are my 50 cents on it. This is as I said my personal experience with it. For other people something else might be better. I tried to find it out also with the help of my therapists. Yeah they motivated me to keep trying.
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