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sanctionme93

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Tried CO but the room was probably too big and not sealed enough, tried gun but couldn't get myself to pull the trigger, got some potassium nitrite on the way tho hopefully I can take some benzos then chug it before I drift to sleep
 
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Liebestod

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Or just do both, when you drink it you'll realize you'll have no other option as it's already too late. So you might as well pull the trigger.
 
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sanctionme93

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Yea might do that but was hoping for it to be less messy for whoever finds me
 
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traingirl

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Tried CO but the room was probably too big and not sealed enough, tried gun but couldn't get myself to pull the trigger, got some potassium nitrite on the way tho hopefully I can take some benzos then chug it before I drift to sleep
If It's from WFE it doesn't work
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

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Nov 22, 2024
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I don't know. But after having failed SN (most likely purity issues), I know that I wouldn't be able to attempt it again. That taste still lingers over 2 weeks later. I feel it must be easier to pull the trigger now that I feel my options are running out.
 
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sanctionme93

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I don't know. But after having failed SN (most likely purity issues), I know that I wouldn't be able to attempt it again. That taste still lingers over 2 weeks later. I feel it must be easier to pull the trigger now that I feel my options are running out.
Was it sodium nitrite or nitrate? I accidentally ordered nitrate when I first tried but luckily I was able to return it lol
 
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TheHolySword

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Dang that worries me then did u have any long term effects? How many grams did u take?
No long term affects after 2 weeks. 30g. I think I was just scammed and it wasn't high enough purity.
 
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Forveleth

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I do not think one method is particularly easier than the other. People think guns make everything easy but I have seen a few threads here where people just could not pull the trigger. On the other hand, people here have also not been able to drink SN. I think it ia more about where you are mentally going into your attempt than the method.
 
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sanctionme93

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I do not think one method is particularly easier than the other. People think guns make everything easy but I have seen a few threads here where people just could not pull the trigger. On the other hand, people here have lao not been able to drink SN. I think it ia more about where you are mentally going into your attempt than the method.
Yea that makes sense. I tell myself it's because with the gun I don't know 100% if I'll hit the right part of the brain to end me instantly and the thought of even for a few seconds dealing with the aftermath is terrifying. I will see if I can do it once I have the SN tho
 
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Mooncry

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I've tried three times now to drink my SN and I always get stuck staring at the cup and can't bring myself to do it. For me, the fear is pretty petrifying. Fear of death is gonna take a lot of willpower to overcome either way. There really doesn't seem to be an easy way out. :/

Not saying the experience will be the same for you, but just be prepared for a lot of "holy shit, I actually have to drink this now, oh god, oh god, oh shit," inner monologue.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

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Oct 29, 2024
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I've never attempted, but I gotta say, I could drink a poison. No problemo. Even if there's some discomfort like with SN. N? Oh baby. Easy peasy.
 
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sanctionme93

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I've never attempted, but I gotta say, I could drink a poison. No problemo. Even if there's some discomfort like with SN. N? Oh baby. Easy peasy.
I thought the same lol but when faced with the unknown you really start to think twice
 
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Unknown21

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I do not think one method is particularly easier than the other. People think guns make everything easy but I have seen a few threads here where people just could not pull the trigger. On the other hand, people here have also not been able to drink SN. I think it ia more about where you are mentally going into your attempt than the method.
Agreed 💯
I've tried three times now to drink my SN and I always get stuck staring at the cup and can't bring myself to do it. For me, the fear is pretty petrifying. Fear of death is gonna take a lot of willpower to overcome either way. There really doesn't seem to be an easy way out. :/

Not saying the experience will be the same for you, but just be prepared for a lot of "holy shit, I actually have to drink this now, oh god, oh god, oh shit," inner monologue.
Exactly, dying is never easy regardless of the method.
I thought the same lol but when faced with the unknown you really start to think twice
I felt the same way too, it's like i was delusional i could drink it lol.
 
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kunikuzushi

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Jan 24, 2023
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I think drinking SN will be easier because the physical act of drinking something isn't scary. However, the minutes after, waiting to die is what scares the hell out of me.
 
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I think drinking SN will be easier because the physical act of drinking something isn't scary. However, the minutes after, waiting to die is what scares the hell out of me.
I worry that I will call someone
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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I vote for SN, but think timing and mindset are the determining factors. If I had the means when I needed a year ago, I most probably would've used it (even a gun if I had access). By the time I got SN, a lot changed, so I believe timing has to be aligned with mindset and means. When that happens, I see myself being more in control and at ease with SN, as opposed to a gun.
 
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I vote for SN, but think timing and mindset are the determining factors. If I had the means when I needed a year ago, I most probably would've used it (even a gun if I had access). By the time I got SN, a lot changed, so I believe timing has to be aligned with mindset and means. When that happens, I see myself being more in control and at ease with SN, as opposed to a gun.
Dont you think its easier to jump. Nothing can go wrong. Before you jump instead of standing on the sides just act like youre sitting on the rooftop so theres no prep. (Maybe rooftop table or something).

Listening to sacred choral music might be enough to comfort we well while jumping
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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Dont you think its easier to jump. Nothing can go wrong
Not for me no, I see SN as more peaceful, and easier I think to book into a hotel than to find a building, make myself jump and crash down to the pavement. I've seen more successful SN attempts compared to jumping here, and while anything can go wrong with either method, I'm more comfortable with the idea of consuming something as opposed to causing outward trauma to my body.
 
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