If you are depressed most of the time, but certain things are able to make you temporarily happy, that's characteristic of atypical depression. Diagnoses are based on how much your condition inhibits your life. If you feel like it is ruining your life or making it worse in a significant way, then you have some sort of illness--whether or not it's depression I wouldn't be able to say, because I can't rule out other disorders just by knowing one symptom.
Thanks for the info! For now it's bearable and I'm in control of my emotions, however deep down I'm scared that one day what if I just completely breakdown and want to CTB, it's just a common fear i think
The two required criteria to be diagnosed with any mental disorder is that it has to either significantly disturb your life or impairs important areas of functioning. As an example: depressive and anxiety disorders fit into the first one, personality disorders like NPD usually fit the second one.
I think it's due to several issues clump together, from worrying about my future, don't see a meaning in living when everyone is going to die anyway and frustrating for not being productive or being lazy and pessimistic. I can not pin point the exact problem right now, for the most part overthinking drives me insane. The idea of CTB is kind of an escapism for me when I don't know what to do or being too overwhelm.
Sounds like you're having an existential crisis? A precursor to existential depression when unresolved? Not seeing a meaning of life definitely has a correlation to seeing ctb as a primary solution.
I agree what you said, when it comes to the question what's the point of living, there are no right or wrong answers, we just exist that's it. However the thought of me still questioning about this topic like a crazy dude is too much for me to handle my mental instability. Some people give advice that it will be better once you have experienced enough, but I don't believe it at all.
