TwilightSylph
Member
- Sep 15, 2025
- 10
I'm really alone, and I'm struggling. I have a couple irl friends but they're not the sort of friends I can bother all day every day, especially when I'm not able to leave the house atm. I'm disabled and kind of stuck.
Early last year I made a friend online in a game I played, I started joining his party/friends to play games pretty much every day since.
Our relationship started just friendly, then slowly became something more, then around Christmas maybe, we basically went back to being just friends because he refused to talk about how he felt about me or agree to meet me irl. Ever since then I've been feeling more and more taken for granted and despite any effort I've made to understand where I fit into the groups dynamic, I just feel my presence is pointless. I'm just there to be vented at. It's got to the point where they care so little about me or what I'm going through that they didn't even realise I took a month off work due to seizures and Injuries recently or that my dog was put down.
My 'best' friend (idk what else to call him) ignored a message from me about 2 weeks ago, despite being online playing with people, and posting on his social media. He's done this a lot recently and I've told him how it makes me feel. I'd had enough, I waited 24 hours with no reply and decided I'd had enough and left our gaming party. He's always threatening to kick people out when they ignore him or if they don't join enough so I decided I'd not give him the satisfaction this time and leave before he could take it out on me.
I was at least expecting a message or something asking why I left but I've had radio silence for 2 weeks. No one cared I left, no one responded to any of my messages, nothing.
I've been trying my best to get on with things because the silence confirmed that they didn't really care or value my presence. Now today he's messaged me out of the blue rambling about some mundane shit to do with a game he likes. I know he's baiting me. I know he just wants me to go back to the way things were before but I'm still so sick of being taken for granted.
I don't know how to respond or fix any of this.
I don't know if I should ignore him and carry on alone, isolated. Or just give in and let him take me for granted again despite having no care for me.
I hate being like this. I'm a waste of oxygen
Early last year I made a friend online in a game I played, I started joining his party/friends to play games pretty much every day since.
Our relationship started just friendly, then slowly became something more, then around Christmas maybe, we basically went back to being just friends because he refused to talk about how he felt about me or agree to meet me irl. Ever since then I've been feeling more and more taken for granted and despite any effort I've made to understand where I fit into the groups dynamic, I just feel my presence is pointless. I'm just there to be vented at. It's got to the point where they care so little about me or what I'm going through that they didn't even realise I took a month off work due to seizures and Injuries recently or that my dog was put down.
My 'best' friend (idk what else to call him) ignored a message from me about 2 weeks ago, despite being online playing with people, and posting on his social media. He's done this a lot recently and I've told him how it makes me feel. I'd had enough, I waited 24 hours with no reply and decided I'd had enough and left our gaming party. He's always threatening to kick people out when they ignore him or if they don't join enough so I decided I'd not give him the satisfaction this time and leave before he could take it out on me.
I was at least expecting a message or something asking why I left but I've had radio silence for 2 weeks. No one cared I left, no one responded to any of my messages, nothing.
I've been trying my best to get on with things because the silence confirmed that they didn't really care or value my presence. Now today he's messaged me out of the blue rambling about some mundane shit to do with a game he likes. I know he's baiting me. I know he just wants me to go back to the way things were before but I'm still so sick of being taken for granted.
I don't know how to respond or fix any of this.
I don't know if I should ignore him and carry on alone, isolated. Or just give in and let him take me for granted again despite having no care for me.
I hate being like this. I'm a waste of oxygen
