Help Is it a dumb idea to ctb impulsively?

[nopurposeinanything]

Im going to plan the place where I will jump (that's my preferred method for now.)—but im not going to plan the date. I get very impulsive when I get in a depressed state or i get aggravated, provoked, etc. It's hard to explain, but i know that im in that impulsive state but I still willingly do impulsive shit—if that even makes sense. I'd rather do my ctb when im in an impulsive state so I dont overthink and procrastinate. Plus, it'd just be easier to not feel guilty. I especially get in a very bad impulsive state when im angry—a very bad state.

 

[northerner]

probably not the best idea! you can only ctb once and that decision is final. please try to think it through so you can be sure youre making the right decision! i wish you all the peace in the world <3

 

[aufrechtm7]

Yes it would be dumb, but that isn't how I'd word it tbh. As Northerner said, you need to do it when you can think as rationally as possible. Also overthinking or procrastinating isn't just random, if you want to ctb as much as you think and those are things that prevent you from doing so, it's for a reason.

 

[NameOfAction]

As a fellow impulsive person, probably.
If I did do it in my more emotional states, I probably wouldn't regret it. Just because I tend to not regret much. But I wouldn't have experienced a lot of cool shit I get to do once I'm not so desperate.

You get to live once, and time is running out regardless. I have ~ 17400 days left and it'd be a bummer to go to 0 immediately

 

[Wolff603]

not the best idea as impulsively, you may have a higher chance of failing and ending up in the hospital in pain.


Wish u the best

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I also have my means and the method is planned but I haven't set a date. Like the others said, being impulsive is likely to lead to failure. When the time is right, I believe we will find peace within to plan the date. In my mind there should be no option left, and there should be no doubt. It should rather be an act of clear certainty as opposed to being left for when impulsive.

 

[systemic_livestock]

Honestly I get the feeling, I do fear death alot dispight myself logically knowing how shit it is to exist, granted i do have some hope for now. But isn't the fear of death apart of making a rational choice though, to think logically about sucide is it think about whether to grow old is worth it or not, you're fear is partly based apon you having human emotions but also thinking about the future you wouldn't have. What if life sucks forever or it might get better is what you should be asking yourself as you lead up to your sucide to end it on what your feeling short term isn't ideal.

 

[singingcrow]

i feel like i'll do it impulsively

 

[BradGuy123]

This is a very serious decision. In my opinion (I'm speaking for myself) this is something I'd think about seriously for a while and not do it in the spur of the moment. I'd be sure that there is no other alternative. There have been many times in the past where I was despondent thinking there was no hope but that time passed. Now, there may come a point when there indeed is no hope but I'd want to be sure that was the case before I did it.

 

[Exhausted546]

Im going to plan the place where I will jump (that's my preferred method for now.)—but im not going to plan the date. I get very impulsive when I get in a depressed state or i get aggravated, provoked, etc. It's hard to explain, but i know that im in that impulsive state but I still willingly do impulsive shit—if that even makes sense. I'd rather do my ctb when im in an impulsive state so I dont overthink and procrastinate. Plus, it'd just be easier to not feel guilty. I especially get in a very bad impulsive state when im angry—a very bad state.

The preparation shouldn't be done impulsively. But for me the action is easier done impulsively, that's how I managed to kick the chair during my previous attempt, I didn't overthink.

 

[singingcrow]

The preparation shouldn't be done impulsively. But for me the action is easier done impulsively, that's how I managed to kick the chair during my previous attempt, I didn't overthink.

how did you survive?

 

[userwtvrwtvr]

I believe this is something you need to spend a lot more time thinking about. A lot of people say "don't trust yourself after 9 p.m." or however it goes. This is a decision that requires some long-term analysis. I struggle a lot with impulsivity, and occasionally, when I get a change in surroundings, I lose the same obsessive motivation I had before to make a hasty decision and CTB. Every time my friend didn't text me for a while, every time I'd get a failing quiz grade, I'd leave my dorm in a rush to find somewhere to jump or hang. And then when I look back on it after clearing my head, I cringe. You'll only end up causing yourself more trouble if you feed into it every time. If you make the choice, it shouldn't be fueled by impulse. Existence will end, and the potentially "sober" you doesn't have the chance to be realistic about it. If impulsivity is the only thing that could facilitate CTB, there's a chance that impulsivity can be channeled into something else. Think long and hard about this.

 

[Exhausted546]

how did you survive?

My feet hit the floor. The anchor point wasn't properly secured

 

[uselessmanz]

Im going to plan the place where I will jump (that's my preferred method for now.)—but im not going to plan the date. I get very impulsive when I get in a depressed state or i get aggravated, provoked, etc. It's hard to explain, but i know that im in that impulsive state but I still willingly do impulsive shit—if that even makes sense. I'd rather do my ctb when im in an impulsive state so I dont overthink and procrastinate. Plus, it'd just be easier to not feel guilty. I especially get in a very bad impulsive state when im angry—a very bad state.

I tried doing that, but when your standing over the ledge…your a different person. For this reason, I will be using alcohol to bypass SI as well as updating one of these threads as I CTB.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Not dumb, but unwise. You may only have one chance and if you fail, you could be left a vegetable or in a condition that disables you enough to make any attempt impossible.

It's always better to think it through and plan it out instead of doing it impulsively.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suppose I always wonder generally about suicides that are presumed to be or labelled as 'impulsive'. What is an 'impulsive' attempt? That a person who's never really thought about suicide previously suddenly has the urge to do it and commits straight away? How likely is that even?

I suppose I tend to view it one of two ways. Either that the person is in a highly aggitated- possibly psychotic state. In which case- maybe it is impulsive in that moment.

What if they have had ideation for years though? What if they've come to the conclusion that suicide is a viable option for them but, they feel like they may need to do it more impulsively in order to get over SI? Is that truly an impulsive attempt? I'm not sure really.

As for whether it's wise or not- I think it probably depends on the method. Some methods- like SN say- require following a protocol for the most reliable results.

We're maybe not thinking things through the most clearly when we are in an impulsive state, which I suppose- could lead to bad decision making regarding carrying out a method.

The actual decision though. I suppose I think it depends on whether a person has very thoroughly thought through what their options are. Whether it really has come down to suicide. If they've put in that thinking though- I'm not sure I even would describe the actual event as an impulsive attempt.

If I decided to jump tomorrow (not that that's my method,) it's possible outsiders might think it was some brief period of angst and an impulsive response. In actuality though, I've had ideation to varying intensities for 36 years. I decided when I was 10 that I felt like suicide was a reasonable option for me. It's what other people think and how I imagine they would respond that is the problem (for me.) I feel sure about my decision. But, I've felt the need to wait for others to die first till I could act on it.

 

[Mr.Tristesse]

Unless you arrived at the decision after a lot of sober, mature reflection and you're acting on a *feeling* but not an *impulse*, it is not wise.

 

[metfan647]

A spontaneous unprecedented impulse isn't the same as a long-held desire which is fuelled by an impulse. I think my eventual catching of the bus will have to be an impulse to some degree but in the grand scheme is rooted in a firmly-calculated belief that it's for my best.

 

[Forveleth]

Yes and no. Setting a specific date tends to make people nervous and therefore increases SI to the point where people can't go through with their method. However, fully impulsive attempts or attempting in a very emotional state can lead to a sloppy attempt which leads to failure. You have to find that line where your method is planned out and able to be executed on whatever date you feel ready, but when that day comes, you need to approach your attempt calmly and thoughtfully.

 

[reowmeow]

I personally think it's best to do it planned out, so not very impulsively. but like at leat 5-8 days of planning/knowing beforehand.