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LongJacks

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Is it generally a bad idea to get high on cannabis before you CTB? To ease your emotions and fear? Can it minimize pain too?
 
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Forveleth

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Depends on how high you get. It should be fine to help you relaxed but you also do not want to be impaired while trying to carry through on your method.
 
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From my experience- it depends on the strain and how it hits you.
One time I planned to ctb, got high and ended up dancing about all night, my brain just seemed to not care about what I'd planned. Everyone is different though so I suppose it also depends how whatever strain you smoke hits you.
Due to how it hits me I will be using alcohol on my date and staying away from smoke.
 
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LongJacks

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Depends on how high you get. It should be fine to help you relaxed but you also do not want to be impaired while trying to carry through on your method.
That's true
From my experience- it depends on the strain and how it hits you.
One time I planned to ctb, got high and ended up dancing about all night, my brain just seemed to not care about what I'd planned. Everyone is different though so I suppose it also depends how whatever strain you smoke hits you.
Due to how it hits me I will be using alcohol on my date and staying away from smoke.
Wow that's interesting what cannabis can do, similar to alcohol in a way? I see
That's wise and true it effects people differently alcohol makes me feel depressive and cannabis just nothing (Like no anger or fear or sadness)
 
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uselessmanz

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Feb 18, 2026
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Is it generally a bad idea to get high on cannabis before you CTB? To ease your emotions and fear? Can it minimize pain too?
I've read that getting high will actually just make you chill out and not want to CTB anymore. I've sat on the railing above 160' and gotten high…I ended up going to bed and continuing my miserable life. I plan on trying alcohol in 6 days.
 
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LongJacks

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I've read that getting high will actually just make you chill out and not want to CTB anymore. I've sat on the railing above 160' and gotten high…I ended up going to bed and continuing my miserable life. I plan on trying alcohol in 6 days.
Hmmm, it sounds kind of like how cannabis makes me feel kind of "Chill out" like, super relaxed and no emotions, I see... good luck with everything I understand your pain life sucks ass. Also not to sound unsympathetic but could you update me if you could? I think alcohol would work better but I'm not sure
 
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Hmmm, it sounds kind of like how cannabis makes me feel kind of "Chill out" like, super relaxed and no emotions, I see... good luck with everything I understand your pain life sucks ass. Also not to sound unsympathetic but could you update me if you could? I think alcohol would work better but I'm not sure
It really depends on the person. I tried with alcohol and that made me so relaxed that I watched a movie instead of hanging. I think you just need to find something that works for you.
 
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LongJacks

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It really depends on the person. I tried with alcohol and that made me so relaxed that I watched a movie instead of hanging. I think you just need to find something that works for you.
You're right I'll experiment when I can with both cannabis and alcohol (Separately of course) thanks though
 
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uselessmanz

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It really depends on the person. I tried with alcohol and that made me so relaxed that I watched a movie instead of hanging. I think you just need to find something that works for you.
Hmmm, it sounds kind of like how cannabis makes me feel kind of "Chill out" like, super relaxed and no emotions, I see... good luck with everything I understand your pain life sucks ass. Also not to sound unsympathetic but could you update me if you could? I think alcohol would work better but I'm not sure
I tried lorazepam about 6 weeks ago, ended up going to sleep…my goal this is time is to get drunk and stand on the railing with both feet. Let's see how it goes.
 
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socksnsandles

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just depends on the person. and what the subtance is. weed.. prob would make me not do it. ketamine.. definitely would help me do it.
 
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LongJacks

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I tried lorazepam about 6 weeks ago, ended up going to sleep…my goal this is time is to get drunk and stand on the railing with both feet. Let's see how it goes.
I've researched a lot on overdosing and It's not like how I thought most likely no matter how much you'll take it won't end you or just cause you seizures and brain damage, ChatGPT lied to me about overdosing tried to trick it and it lied

I see... good luck with everything hope you find peace. :heart:
just depends on the person. and what the subtance is. weed.. prob would make me not do it. ketamine.. definitely would help me do it.
Hm harsher drugs do make you do impulsive things more true
 
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socksnsandles

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I've researched a lot on overdosing and It's not like how I thought most likely no matter how much you'll take it won't end you or just cause you seizures and brain damage, ChatGPT lied to me about overdosing tried to trick it and it lied

I see... good luck with everything hope you find peace. :heart:

Hm harsher drugs do make you do impulsive things more true
its not about it being harsher. its about the nature of the drug. ketamine induces sedation by blocking nmda receptors. thc at high doses overstimulates the amygdala thus causing anxiety

anyways, just take benzos if you want something to help with taking the edge off during your ctb
 
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LongJacks

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its not about it being harsher. its about the nature of the drug. ketamine induces sedation by blocking nmda receptors. thc at high doses overstimulates the amygdala thus causing anxiety

anyways, just take benzos if you want something to help with taking the edge off during your ctb
I see, sorry I'm not that good with drugs or chemicals so I don't understand most oof, but I get the gist of it though thank you
 
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uselessmanz

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Feb 18, 2026
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its not about it being harsher. its about the nature of the drug. ketamine induces sedation by blocking nmda receptors. thc at high doses overstimulates the amygdala thus causing anxiety

anyways, just take benzos if you want something to help with taking the edge off during your ctb
but when i tried lorazepam it did not work :( i used 1 mg though maybe thats too little?
 
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socksnsandles

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Oct 7, 2025
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but when i tried lorazepam it did not work :( i used 1 mg though maybe thats too little?
my understanding is that 1mg lorazepram is equivalent to 0.5mg alprazolam. ive only ever taken alprazolam (xanax). you should have felt something at the dose albeit it would be subtle. did you not feel anything at all? and was this your first time taking benzos? go up to 2mg next time and just monitor.

i know the pph suggests taking like a megadose for the actual ctb.
 
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scordatura

scordatura

step off the chair
Sep 12, 2025
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A short while ago, I really thought I was going to hang myself. But I went for a smoke first and when I came back and tried, I crumbled and broke down, because I was desperate for it to end, yet the high gave me some tiny desire to live. And now here I am, and it's funny cause if I told regular folk that, they'd see that as a good thing. But for me it was devastating to know I wasn't going to do it.
 
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uselessmanz

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Feb 18, 2026
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my understanding is that 1mg lorazepram is equivalent to 0.5mg alprazolam. ive only ever taken alprazolam (xanax). you should have felt something at the dose albeit it would be subtle. did you not feel anything at all? and was this your first time taking benzos? go up to 2mg next time and just monitor.

i know the pph suggests taking like a megadose for the actual ctb.
I felt contentment which is exactly the problem đŸ˜” this was my 4th time taking benzodiazepines.

I am going with alcohol this Tuesday, hopefully it works.
 
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