Is ctb worth it?

[iamgonnadie]

I'm just stuck there, my life is completely ruined. I'm a engineering student but my academics are also ruined.
I had a girlfriend, our relationship was very traumatic, I was very depressed so much so that I completely skipped my exams, my 2 semesters are wasted, my gpa is also very low now.
She left me now.
I'm not even going to any classes now, just rotting in my bed all day.
I can't complete my degree or get a job. My father died when I was 8yr old. My family became poor after my father left.
My uncle pay my tuition fees and for my mother but he's also suffering from cancer, but he isn't taking treatment, I guess he also wanna ctb.
I wanna do ctb by hanging in my room. But only thing stopping me is thought of my mother, She will be very sad.
But if I don't ctb I'll just become a burden to her. She never remarried, she's alone, poor and also depressed maybe. And she doesn't know my condition.
please tell me what to-do? I am very confused.
Is it worth it to run away and do ctb?

 

[DivineSpark]

I got zero achievements in my life, even my own brother despise me. No career, living on taxpayers money like total loser.

 

[drug]

probably going against the grain here but most ppl enjoy life for one reason or another despite its downsides and think committing isnt worth it, either for personal goals, wanting to see the future, family, etc. a lot of ppl dont get the luxury of a good life but still enjoy it for what it is and usually the hard times do get better.. albeit there will always be more hard times in the future. i personally struggle with coping with that tho.
unless your mom has called u a burden i doubt she thinks you are one. your thoughts can play a lot of tricks on you.
nobody can tell you what to do but if you are unsure id really reconsider especially since you just went through a breakup and that can stir up a lot of emotions and impulsiveness

 

[Johnzaga23]

as an engineering student who also skipped my exams and ruined two semesters, i relate.