is anyone real still on here?

[iftheworldwasending]

as you can tell by my "start profile" date or whatever, I've been on here for a while. I just don't think anyone cares about me anymore and I've been super distant from my best friend recently, I don't know where she's gone or what's happened. all that I can continue to turn to is drinking and I can barely afford it (aka I can't, idk how I'm gonna make rent) but I'm just so alone and numb as fuck and wish I kept the two orders of SN I had when I bought them, but now it's virtually impossible to get here. I just can't leave my cats. I can't. that's the only reason I'm still here, otherwise id just get some rope and sand bags and figure it out, but I can't and it breaks my heart even more. anyone else stuck? I wanna die so bad. so bad.

 

[moralfag]

I'm in the same boat unfortunately. Want to ctb peacefully but there's still so many loose ends of life I still need to tie up…I hope things get better for you, and that wherever life takes you you're able to find peace

 

[soul2realm]

Life is pain! No amount of words can take it away, but still, wish your pain goes away. Sending you a hug and loads of blessings.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm a long term member too. I see you and I both joined in 2020. I'm having money troubles too and it makes me want to die as well. I wish I knew what to say that could help you but I don't unfortunately. I feel stuck too but want to die just as bad as you do so I know the feeling.

 

[RW__Asher23]

I think a lot of us here are in the same boat. I wish I had the words that could make knowing how you are feeling and what you are going through is just another part of Life till it is over but reality is I don't have any great wisdom to pass on and I am wanting to ctb asap myself but I have an illness that will give me no choice. No need to find a way to die for me nature/ God/ fate whatever has chosen that for me but I will not allow my disease take me out. I take myself out for sure. I have been here a while myself too. But before here I was part of another place that started this all I think ASH. But I tried 5 time and succeeded once, was brought back with some damage too but I wish I kept my means of ending this too. I did not use SN though. But I live where they just passed law to allow suicide with dignity. Huh. Funny to me they use that phrase. Death with Dignity. But I am getting off track here. I send you what I usually do on here, I wish you the very best journey through the rest of this life to the end or whatever you prefer to call it but that it will be what you want when you want and it will be the closest thing to peaceful journey to that end no matter when or what that is. Wish you Peace.

 

[absolute failure]

as you can tell by my "start profile" date or whatever, I've been on here for a while. I just don't think anyone cares about me anymore and I've been super distant from my best friend recently, I don't know where she's gone or what's happened. all that I can continue to turn to is drinking and I can barely afford it (aka I can't, idk how I'm gonna make rent) but I'm just so alone and numb as fuck and wish I kept the two orders of SN I had when I bought them, but now it's virtually impossible to get here. I just can't leave my cats. I can't. that's the only reason I'm still here, otherwise id just get some rope and sand bags and figure it out, but I can't and it breaks my heart even more. anyone else stuck? I wanna die so bad. so bad.

I feel that. I am a real, miserable person and i wish i could just end everything. Our stories are quite similar: i also threw away my sn and i deeply regret it now. Now its eigher yew or the rope

 

[Alpacachino]

I appreciate the people who have spent years on the site. It means they are struggling but overcoming their troubles.That's actually a good thing and something to be proud of.

I've also been finding things extremely tedious for the last few years. But I'm just continuing on.Hopefully I'll spend a few years on the site collecting information and biding my time till it's that time.