Discussion Is anyone happy that their attempt failed?

[doireallywannadie]

Looking at all of these stories on social media, most posts are abt how people are glad they survived and that they wished they never attempted because it caused dramatic effects on their mental and physical well beings, and that they wish they'd never attempted in the first place or wish their attempt worked. So some of these people do not really seem happy. At least that's what I think.

But is anyone glad that their attempt failed. And why? (I mean it's great that you're happy you lived.) (I'm sorry, English is not my first language, idk how else to word it)

I just wanna know before I decide to go through w my plan. Perhaps there is something to look forward to that'll keep me alive for at least one more day.

 

[absolute failure]

I failed my attempt 2 weeks ago and I am not happy. I will try again next week. These 2 weeks showed me that i am useless and truly didnt miss out on anything

 

[scenecore fan]

nah, my first attempt was less than a week ago, i did it on a date that i really dislike. overall i wasnt excited at all by the idea of waking up next day.

so i tried, i didn't even had the method i have chosen ready so i tried some random shit, and because of that i ended up with like 6 unsuccesful tries, chest pain, trouble when breathing, and this feeling of uselessness? like the only reason i was feeling worse afterwards was because i couldnt maintain my stupid survival instinct at bay. at first i thought that after attempting i might feel smth, but tbh, besides the physical shit i just mentioned and the frustration of not managing to kill my self, i didn't feel anything.

so yeah, i wish i had my chosen method ready that day, maybe if i did have it i could have actually died, but here we are :p

 

[EmptyBottle]

I failed my attempt in 2022, and sometimes I'm happy I failed, sometimes I'm not (and daydream about future CTB).

 

[Scythe]

Hey, mine was 2022 as well, and yeah, would've been nice to die that day. I attempted on the day a game hit end of service and we all gathered around to give it a big send off. I really felt like people were there when I died. Even though they had no clue what I was doing, but it was nice to be in call with like 20 people, playing the game we all love and then drinking my poison wishing that I'd never have to wake up.

Was extremely disappointed when I did.

And honestly, I can't think of anything that made the next few years worth it.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I think 99.9% of those people are liars! Most people I would assume don't elect to ctb because their dog died, or for simple reasons. People ctb because they are tired of their pain whether it's physical or mental. These people have suffered so long and has sought to find some type of relief and it simply wasn't enough. Suicidal people usually struggle with their decision for months or years before they ever attempt, or some never attempt..my point is, the thought is always lingering in their minds. I think they lie for the sake of persuading people not to ctb.

Personally, I wish my 1st attempt was successful because it seems life only got more disastrous for me. I will never regret my attempts, and will always wish I had a solid method and I would go! My only regret is not being educated enough about methods and wasting my time believing I was leaving. For anyone who has ever attempted, the path to ctb is an emotional roller-coaster, only to wake up and realize you failed an attempt and have to keep going.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

nah, my first attempt was less than a week ago, i did it on a date that i really dislike. overall i wasnt excited at all by the idea of waking up next day.

so i tried, i didn't even had the method i have chosen ready so i tried some random shit, and because of that i ended up with like 6 unsuccesful tries, chest pain, trouble when breathing, and this feeling of uselessness? like the only reason i was feeling worse afterwards was because i couldnt maintain my stupid survival instinct at bay. at first i thought that after attempting i might feel smth, but tbh, besides the physical shit i just mentioned and the frustration of not managing to kill my self, i didn't feel anything.

so yeah, i wish i had my chosen method ready that day, maybe if i did have it i could have actually died, but here we are :p

I'm sorry to hear, could you say what random shit exactly?

 

[itsgone2]

No I wish I had succeeded long ago. I hate all of life.

 

[carfemtanyl]

I always hated it right after but now that I finally have a will to live, I am actually happy that I failed.

 

[StillLife]

I attempted in October 2013 and I remember being so frustrated with the attempt failing I stayed in my room for 3 entire days barely eating or drinking just staring at the ceiling, only leaving to use the bathroom.

Now in the present, I did experience and accomplish better days but overall? I'd say I would've been better had it succeeded.

 

[Exhausted546]

Looking at all of these stories on social media, most posts are abt how people are glad they survived and that they wished they never attempted because it caused dramatic effects on their mental and physical well beings, and that they wish they'd never attempted in the first place or wish their attempt worked. So some of these people do not really seem happy. At least that's what I think.

But is anyone glad that their attempt failed. And why? (I mean it's great that you're happy you lived.) (I'm sorry, English is not my first language, idk how else to word it)

I just wanna know before I decide to go through w my plan. Perhaps there is something to look forward to that'll keep me alive for at least one more day.

Somewhat, if my attempt had worked my dad would have discovered my corpse and the house would have lost its value.

Hence why I decided to stop attempting at home. I have no money for motels so it'll have to be the regional park woods

 

[slowlydying2mrrw]

Looking at all of these stories on social media, most posts are abt how people are glad they survived and that they wished they never attempted because it caused dramatic effects on their mental and physical well beings, and that they wish they'd never attempted in the first place or wish their attempt worked. So some of these people do not really seem happy. At least that's what I think.

But is anyone glad that their attempt failed. And why? (I mean it's great that you're happy you lived.) (I'm sorry, English is not my first language, idk how else to word it)

I just wanna know before I decide to go through w my plan. Perhaps there is something to look forward to that'll keep me alive for at least one more day.

Not really

 

[scenecore fan]

I'm sorry to hear, could you say what random shit exactly?

tried to asphyxiate myself, thats why i said i was trying to do so that many times :/

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

im not glad my attempts failed, i would much rather not be here anymore. for now though, im not too upset either, because i know i can attempt again if i want to and so i can tolerate existing for a little while longer.

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[Cauliflour]

If I had actually died that day, I would've looked so much like a loser that all people would know about me from then would be that I was the girl who strangled herself to death with a neck tie in public cause she drank too much coffee that week. You only die once and I want to do it properly, not some half assed attempt cause caffeine makes me suicidal...

 

[meddle]

sometimes im happy, sometimes im not

 

[Forveleth]

Looking at all of these stories on social media, most posts are abt how people are glad they survived

You have to remember there is a bias on social media towards "feel good" stories with a happy ending. They are never going to promote someone saying "I lived and I hate it".

Also, personally, I lived and I hate it.