I'm in excruciating physical pain. I truly can't take this pain 24/7. There has to be some way to get the medication that would be similar to the powdered compound pharmacies make. I wish there was a way to find a doctor who would help. There has to be people who were given the MAiD and died before using it, or have it and change their mind. There may be doctors here who know how I could get the right combination. Maybe someone knows of a guide or organization that provides it. I wonder if concierge doctors or any home or virtual visits with NJ doctors who have done MAiD could find a way, back date a request would do that. I can have courier pick up from N.Y or N.J.I can't believe pain can even be this intense and I have a really high tolerance. It hurts to eat, laying in bed with pressure points burning, breathing literally hurts. There has to be a way. A vet or vet tech would have and probably could prescribe the medication.I don't have dark web access. I wonder can you find guides or if anyone sells the meds if they have them from a family member.I'm desperate.
Unlucky777
Student
- Dec 10, 2025
- 119
I'm from NJ but I'm not sure how I can be of help with the above you mentioned.
I'm sorry to hear that you are in pain and bed ridden. If I can help in any way I would love to but I am not sure how
I'm sorry to hear that you are in pain and bed ridden. If I can help in any way I would love to but I am not sure how
madameviolette
Another Big Pharma victim
- Oct 9, 2025
- 304
I'm sorry. I'm in unbelievable torture too but mine is neurological. It's horrible to suffer in agony and feel stuck and trapped like an animal
Thank you so much. I'm trying to find some way to get the meds.NJ doctors can prescribe. I don't know if anyone works or knows any connections to vet,dr hospice, patient who didn't use it. Just trying to find out if there are any sources for the least painful way. I appreciate you response. Would love to be helpful to you too!
I'm so sorry to hear. Of course, it would be illegal for medical professionals to do that, and they'd be risking a lot. Maybe someone with access, a soft heart, and nothing to lose will come across this & help 
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.I know most would not be able to help. Of course it would be to much of a risk. I know that it happens. There must be a way. I may not find it but I can hope. Thanks for your response.
