Jon Arbuckle
Aspiring Corpse
- Jul 23, 2024
- 87
I truly despise being autistic, I feel like almost every fucking negative trait I have can be attributed in part to my autism.
I feel like every other person in the world has something to them that I'm just "missing" from myself, I somehow manage to always choose the worst possible thing to do or say when interacting with others. I'm always fucking up. all I do anymore is look back on social interactions I've had and think "why the fuck did I say/do that? what the hell is wrong with me?"
hell, sometimes I even second guess my stupid fucking decisions on what to do, I think "maybe this is a bad idea." and then I DO IT ANYWAY.
I feel like trying to reduce this behavior is a fruitless endeavor because it's almost like an instinct for me to act awkward and make others uncomfortable, it's built into who I am and trying to fix it would be like putting lipstick on a pig.
Is anyone else frustrated with being autistic?
I feel like every other person in the world has something to them that I'm just "missing" from myself, I somehow manage to always choose the worst possible thing to do or say when interacting with others. I'm always fucking up. all I do anymore is look back on social interactions I've had and think "why the fuck did I say/do that? what the hell is wrong with me?"
hell, sometimes I even second guess my stupid fucking decisions on what to do, I think "maybe this is a bad idea." and then I DO IT ANYWAY.
I feel like trying to reduce this behavior is a fruitless endeavor because it's almost like an instinct for me to act awkward and make others uncomfortable, it's built into who I am and trying to fix it would be like putting lipstick on a pig.
Is anyone else frustrated with being autistic?