coolgal82
she/her, terminally silly :3
- Sep 10, 2024
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Whenever i try to like hink of becomng better/being a beter person/etc my brain instantly just shuts it down like "no you are objectively bad and broken and unfixable and the only solution to protect others is for you to die" like even as much as i would love to get better somehow and improve myself and stop hurting people my brain is just like unable to comprehend that as a possibility, like it's not that i just don't know how to it's just that my brain has already decided and locked in on the fact that i will just never get better and actively prevents me from thinking anything to the contrary (mostly? depending on the mood im in sometimes its more just "i can but idk how to" or like "nah it isnt even an issue lmao i'll be fine from here on out" or similar stuff idk? its hard to describe. i might be getting this completely wrong i genuinely have no idea how my brain works or who i am lmao which makes this stuff really hard)
Does anyone else feel like this?
Does anyone else feel like this?
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