I think there is a difference between heartbreak, and loss of a soulmate. I've had previous breakups which took time (years) to get over that did not make me suicidal. But now, the main reason I'm here, it's not the same. I know now, that before this person, I did not even know what love is. I didn't understand that someone could love me back the way I love them, that I'm good enough for this person the way I am, and that I should not only give love, but be open to receiving it. I realised this too late and when he left, I sent my heart "away", because I couldn't let the heart's emotions interfere with my brain to function, it's simply too much. In my view my heart is not broken, it's gone, and I won't open myself to feel again, unless it is to reunite with the same person. In a way I'm grateful this happened for me to finally learn about love, but it's plain torture. I'm sorry for what happened to you and wish you all the best, sending hugs.