Slayer

Slayer

Member
Sep 13, 2018
47
I literary have no friends. To be honest I got used to it. Everyone I knew moved on with their lives. Some abandoned me, I abandoned some. Overall I'm left all alone with no one to rely on but myself.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
I literary have no friends. To be honest I got used to it. Everyone I knew moved on with their lives. Some abandoned me, I abandoned some. Overall I'm left all alone with no one to rely on but myself.
here too
 
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Kogoruhn

Kogoruhn

Student
May 20, 2018
109
Same here. I only have one friend from university but honestly i dont wanna talk to anyone. Feels like a chore, even with my family. I just only think of ctb, don't care about nothing more.
 
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Cherry Crumpet

Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
271
Entire family turned against my mom and I. A relative sexually assaulted her. They don't believe her. That person was someone I trusted more than anyone (besides my mum). The situation is so bizarre and outlandish that it's impossible to try and explain it to people. My best friend knows. An old friend from school knows. I think what that person did to my mother broke something in me. Sorry.. this turned into an off topic rant.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
html://friendsandfamily.me=error 404 friends and family not found
 
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Neon

Neon

Member
May 20, 2018
53
am also completely alone, music is all i have
 
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MissLisa

MissLisa

Student
Sep 13, 2018
153
I don't have any friends. Never really have, I had acquaintances during my drug years but I have always felt on the outside, different than everyone else, even from a very young age. I can't connect with people like most others can.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
don't know what the hell im going to to do.
 
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Ben

Warlock
Sep 12, 2018
784
I literary have no friends. To be honest I got used to it. Everyone I knew moved on with their lives. Some abandoned me, I abandoned some. Overall I'm left all alone with no one to rely on but myself.

So much this^^^^^
 
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Sayo

Sayo

Not 2B
Aug 22, 2018
520
Me too

I have avoidant personality disorder and progressively pushed away both the people in my life who were bad for me and anyone else left over and have literally no one now. But I've been lonely since childhood despite trying hard to make friends.

I think about trying to talk to people but if I did I would panic and be unable to maintain the conversation. And group situations which are manageable aren't an option any more because they hang out with the person who stalked and interrogated me until my panic got this bad.
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
Well, I don't bother initiating discussions with most people. Especially in groups. Even in a conversation with 1 other person, I cannot talk about stuff by myself until I reach a level of comfort that builds up over the course of years. I do talk more freely in groups these days, but it's because it's always in a context that encourages talking about weird shit, and only from the angle of work (long story). I don't think I'll ever have friends - people merely drift in and out of my life, and stick around me even less.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Here.

I am isolated.

It's one of my main reasons for CTB.

People just don't like me.
 
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setianism

setianism

Member
Sep 15, 2018
72
I used to have quite a lot of friends but they all drifted away from me over the years and I gave up trying to get back in touch with them
Right now I only have my boyfriend but we don't talk much anymore so basically I'm alone
 
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blood orange

blood orange

Member
Sep 14, 2018
81
I've probably gone 2 weeks without speaking in a real conversation. I reached out people before, but no one replied for a long time. Then I deactivated or deleted all of my social media.

I only recall greeting my housemate every now and then and thanking the pizza person.
 
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RbnHopeless

RbnHopeless

Member
Sep 19, 2018
50
I've never had friends, almost just virtual contacts. Chronic depression and avoidance personality disorder with schizoid traits.
 
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wezel

wezel

Experienced
Aug 14, 2018
221
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
Yea I'm hikikomori and now I don't even like to see or interact with others. Only rarely for specific purposes like playing or buying stuff
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Isolated.


We do like you !


Aaaw, thanks Wezel. Well some of you guys do I guess. I can be a bit "testy" at times, not proud of that.

I like you too!!!
 
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wezel

wezel

Experienced
Aug 14, 2018
221
Aaaw, thanks Wezel. Well some of you guys do I guess. I can be a bit "testy" at times, not proud of that.

I like you too!!!

Glad to hear ! And even cranky old Wezel feels a teeny-wheeny bit less isolated now :)
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I am alone. No friends irl. I consider you guys friends. ... I am VERY isolated and lonely. I'm socially awkward. It's very difficult for me to make friends.
 
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Abel

Abel

Member
Sep 11, 2018
60
I have no friends anymore. I used to, years ago... they were really good people. But they were also so much better than me, in every single way. They were all so smart, so pretty, skinny, had thriving social lives, everything. I used to think they were the very definition of success.

Me, on the other hand... I was always the "fat, ugly, dumb friend," the awkward slug who no one actually wanted to be around. I had awful self-esteem issues (still do - I think they've worsened actually), so I ended up feeling so horrible about myself every time I was around them; I couldn't help but constantly compare myself to them, and I would even cry knowing that I was a complete failure next to them.

So, instead of simply being happy for my friends like a normal, good person, I cut contact with all of them, like a selfish, petty bitch. I've been alone ever since... Honestly, it's better this way. No one should have to be friends with someone like me.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
Yea I'm hikikomori and now I don't even like to see or interact with others. Only rarely for specific purposes like playing or buying stuff
The fact that you even know that word makes me worried for you
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

Wizard
Aug 16, 2018
672
Entire family turned against my mom and I. A relative sexually assaulted her. They don't believe her. That person was someone I trusted more than anyone (besides my mum). The situation is so bizarre and outlandish that it's impossible to try and explain it to people. My best friend knows. An old friend from school knows. I think what that person did to my mother broke something in me. Sorry.. this turned into an off topic rant.
Oh my goodness what a horrendous story. I'm so sorry
 
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Deleted_9cKnXB34QG

Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
I have schizoid PD, so yeah.
No IRL friends, no online friends - I simply can't stand people. Any kind of social interaction, even online chat, is draining.
 
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okyeah

Arcanist
Jul 20, 2018
425
I never connect with anybody. I attract rejects or aggressive assholes that don't respect me as "friends". I've cut ties with most of them. I was doing things that were supposed to be "social" for awhile earlier this year like going out to bars with these "friends" and playing basketball but I never really enjoyed it. It was all so forced and unnatural. I hate being alone but I have to remind myself it's better than forcing stupid friendships.
 
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DeathBecomesMe

DeathBecomesMe

Student
Sep 9, 2018
143
Although they drained me, I had/have plenty of friends. I've been ignoring them for over 6 months, and it's only every few weeks that they try make contact now. But I will keep ignoring them.

If it wasn't for my gf I would be totally isolated. I'm trying to be isolated, so most of the time when my gf speaks I just say: "Omg who cares", or "go die" or "do whatever". I think she likes it. People are strange like that.
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
*raises hand*

I feel you.
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

Wizard
Aug 16, 2018
672
My neighbour just invited me for coffee. We would have so much in common but I'm in such torturous agony all can think of is suicide every second. Can't really hAve friendships like this.
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
My neighbour just invited me for coffee. We would have so much in common but I'm in such torturous agony all can think of is suicide every second. Can't really hAve friendships like this.
It helps to get away though! Bonding with people distracts. At least for me anyway.
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
I literary have no friends. To be honest I got used to it. Everyone I knew moved on with their lives. Some abandoned me, I abandoned some. Overall I'm left all alone with no one to rely on but myself.
Same here :(
 
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