Is anybody worried about method failure?

[Haku]

If you somehow mess up with the method you chose to ctb with, are you worried you might do something irrational out of desperation to finish the job?

 

[Relief]

I don't think i would act irrationally to finish the job if my initial method failed.
If hanging were to fail i would probably take a deep breath and find another spot or rope (whatever needed) but i wouldn't be impulsive about it.
However, the thought of potentially failing is the only thing keeping me from getting the relief i want. The thought of waking up again is what haunts me the most.

 

[Haku]

I don't think i would act irrationally to finish the job if my initial method failed.
If hanging were to fail i would probably take a deep breath and find another spot or rope (whatever needed) but i wouldn't be impulsive about it.
However, the thought of potentially failing is the only thing keeping me from getting the relief i want. The thought of waking up again is what haunts me the most.

That is the dilemma I am having as well, but my methods differ from yours, i thought about hanging, but apart of me doesnt want to try it. So I have a plan A , a Plan B, and Plan C. I am so paranoid about it going all wrong, so that's why I have 3 methods, 1 main one, and the other 2 to fall back on, if I fail with Plan A.... A. Night Night method, a method that cost nothing and its painless, but it is a precise science, if you fail to compress your sweet spots, nothing happens, so you either keep trying until you find them, or if it takes a long time, and you only have a little bit of time to get this done, you might have no choice but to give up, and if your using the gorilla tape instead of the ratchet, you might be screwed, I know you need some kind of chemical to remove Gorilla glue, but didnt find anything on google that removes the tape. So if you try to remove it without a chemical remover, it could tear your skin off, and that will be unpleasant. So, best to keep the tape on and move on to Plan B. SN method. SN is not difficult to obtain, but that meds you need to take with the SN are if you are unable to acquire a prescription, and that is the case for me at the moment, short story,my doctor will not give me one, and the only other way I might be able to get it, is if I found a drug dealer selling them, or a website that sells them to you without a script. Only dealers in my area, are weed dealers, witch is ironic, because I live in a state where weed is legal, and you can buy it in stores. And the whole website thing, I am still unsure of, still looking for people on here that know of a trusted site. So at the moment, I do not know if I will be able to get the prescribed meds. If I do not get them, I will try taking SN in capsules, without the nausea meds and valium. There has been people saying though that the capsules do not always help you from vomiting. Only a few people got lucky that way apparently, so I am a little worried to do it that way, but I might not have a choice. Plan C, is the original method I was going to go with before I found out about this site and the painless methods. I am trying to stay away from plan C. Razor to the Wrists. I had originally thought that if I got drunk and then slit my wrists in a bathtub, that I would feel pain, but that ot wouldn't be that bad because the alcohol numbs most of the pain. But then I found this site and found a thread about someone trying this method and surviving, and yea, theres apparently a 50/50 chance of survival from this method, not going through all the details with this one, because this post is already too long, but short story, if you survive this method, you will be in excruciating pain. When I read that thread and that womans story of her survival, I gave up on this method. So if plan A and B fail for me, I will probably go into a state of desperation, and end up ctb with Plan C. Razor to the wrists, and I'm not going to lie to you I dont really get scared of anything, but the possible failure of my methods, Fucking Scares the shit out of me. I could end up just backing out of the whole thing if plan C is all I have left, but I will be using all my money for this trip and for all the things I need to ctb, and also, I will only be buying a one way ticket, and I am doing this purposely so that I cannot go back on doing this, because even though failure scares the shit out of me, I do not have cold feet on wanting to catch this fucking bus out of this hell called my life. So I just answered my own question , would like to hear everyone else's answer for those that pass through my thread. Thank you for those that read my entire post, and sorry that it is almost a novel.

 

[a_strange_day]

I think everybody is worried about failure, which is why you need to make sure your method is bulletproof. But I also think that people are overthinking things and it can be totally couterproductive. There is clearly too much misinformation available and if you start to listen to everybody's opinion on what they "heard"...My opinion, stick with proven EOL books like PPeH, Five last acts etc.

 

[Rachel74]

Everyone is. Even the best method of N can go wrong.

 

[Return2Dust]

I'm worried. That's what holds me back. I've tried several methods and failed. I haven't tried SN. That's next; however, I don't want to make a trip to the hospital then the psych ward.

 

[hatelife]

I failed my recent attempt with amitriptyline overdose, as I somehow got up after falling asleep and went to my moms door and collapsed, convulsed etc, but if I hadnt done that I would be dead said the doctor, so Next time Im going to ducktape my legs, arms and mouth so I cant move so easily or make sounds. This method made is really easy and painfree, I feel asleep in 5 min, almost as good as N I think. Just takes longer to die. If things dont get better soon with my hair or sleep, Im going to try again, I ordered SN, waiting for that to maybe try, and will order some amitriptyline powder online to have as backup or maybe try that, will see what I will choose of the 2. Yeah I was worried too, as after my overdose I couldnt form words, was stuttering and shaking arms after they had to put me in a coma as I wasnt breathing correctly by myself and had seizures, but now its gone so there was no brain damage I guess, but was really worried in the hospital when I was talking another language but in my head I was thinking A but saying B.
Im not as afraid though anymore, this attempt made me see that its not a big deal to die, didnt remember anything at all after I took the pills, until waking up after the coma and my mom told me everything what had happened.