Is 450 mg of Ambien enough?

[painIess]

So, my mother said if I ctb, I am the going to hell, not her. She also said her conscience is clean. I would like to defy that notion. I was thinking about purchasing SN the last week because it's really easy to get it in my country, but I hit a new low and can't take it anymore. I have 450 mg of Ambien and some quetiapine, let's see if it'll do...

 

[imdepressed999]

That is so cruel, I am sorry

 

[mortuarymary]

We call it zolpidem in the uk and I think it might work.

 

[painIess]

I survived because they taken me to gastric washing quickly. I spent a week in the hospital. My mother didn't visit me on the hospital and when I came back she was actually angry with me. Makes me think if she actually minds about me. The reason I didn't seek another method to CTB is that I saw my grandma's reaction. She was crying and saying I was her only son (sic) who was still alive or not in a junkie life. I also missed my cats. They still have about half of their life's left. I think my grandma had 10 more years max. I think I'll live for these before I make a more silent and serious attempt of CTB. My mother said she wanted to have children because she likes children, and said that if she knew I was going to be so problematic, she wouldn't had any children. They say you must find your reason to life. But I don't have even small term important goals