AnnonyBox

AnnonyBox

Specialist
Apr 11, 2018
334
Anyone else feel really empowered and overjoyed after a test run of their cbt method? The thought "nothing can hurt me now" crossed my mind after my last successful test run.
 
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Mich517

Mich517

Ex-musician
Jan 9, 2019
139
I had that after failure with Sodium Nitrite a bit. It's evanescent. :-P At least for me it was.
 
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suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
I envy you so much! I don't know the feeling, my SI is too strong. After my approach (I can't even call it attempt) I felt like I traveled through hell and discovered that I'm trapped.
 
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SweetGoldenLake

New Member
Mar 22, 2019
4
I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?
 
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ImSorryEmma

ImSorryEmma

Skylar
Mar 28, 2019
107
I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?
So... You CTB now tonight? well if you are then good luck and all hope for the best and also if heaven/hell is real then tell god/satan i said hi, anyways i need to get sleep for the night so goodbye for now
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?
Do you mean you're ready and firmly decided to catch the bus tonight?
 
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SweetGoldenLake

New Member
Mar 22, 2019
4
Do you mean you're ready and firmly decided to catch the bus tonight?

I've been ready, just cant get partial to work for me even though I've been attempting most nights. I have shotguns I could use as a last resort if I cant figure it out, but I'd rather not do that to my parents who'll find me
 
Jen Erik

Jen Erik

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Oct 12, 2018
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Anyone else feel really empowered and overjoyed after a test run of their cbt method? The thought "nothing can hurt me now" crossed my mind after my last successful test run.
Not invincible so much, but definitely empowered, relieved, a sense of comfort.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,798
I've had some test runs by dry firing (pulling the trigger without any ammo) my shotgun with the barrel in my mouth a few times in the past. I've somehow learned roughly about how much pressure (in lbs) that I need to exert with my finger in order for the gun to go off. When I hear a click, then it means that had there been a live round in the chamber, the gun would have gone off.

As of now, since I'm not actively suicidal, I don't really think of offing myself. I'm just passively suicidal, daydreaming of suicide from time to time.
 
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