nothatvalid
young wild and tired
- Jan 4, 2022
- 3
i feel invalid because i have no plans to kms but i still think about it. i have plans and dreams (some healthy like studying abroad, being multilingual, publishing books, being a mom and one specific that is entirely unhealthy which is a certain weight) but sometimes it feel worthless to do these things; yet, i still fight for it. but because i found reasons, i feel like the moments i contemplate ending it all is invalid. i think writing and killing my characters has helped it, yet i still remember and feel invalid because my 12 n 14 year old selves wanted it a lot, specially because i felt trapped. now, it's almost time for me to get out of home and be on my own. it decreased my will to kms, but i still think about it when I'm back to the darkness.
the main thing is: i have suicidal thoughts but because i will not act on them i feel invalid
the main thing is: i have suicidal thoughts but because i will not act on them i feel invalid