Gilriel
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- May 9, 2023
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This is one of those mental exercises that has me in circles every time.
I think about the reasons why I want to CTB and often feel totally invalidated. Like I shouldn't want to do it because the reasons don't seem substantial enough or something. That then makes me more upset, which amplifies the initial point and makes me feel like a "poser". It's all in my head and I still rationalize my self as a poser? Like what the fuck you absolute looser. It's in your HEAD no one is here to have this conversation, no one will be there when you do it. Maybe just by having this train of thought I am correct and I am a "poser" or what ever.
Any one else experience these kinds of thoughts of invalidity? As toxic as it is, does any one have a bar they would admit to of what would consider reasonable?
I think about the reasons why I want to CTB and often feel totally invalidated. Like I shouldn't want to do it because the reasons don't seem substantial enough or something. That then makes me more upset, which amplifies the initial point and makes me feel like a "poser". It's all in my head and I still rationalize my self as a poser? Like what the fuck you absolute looser. It's in your HEAD no one is here to have this conversation, no one will be there when you do it. Maybe just by having this train of thought I am correct and I am a "poser" or what ever.
Any one else experience these kinds of thoughts of invalidity? As toxic as it is, does any one have a bar they would admit to of what would consider reasonable?
