Intrusive thoughts and ocd fucking sucks

[cakedog]

almost every single thing i do feels like a nightmare even simple stuff like turning on/off my computer
can't even daydream anymore because 95% of the time i spend "daydreaming" is actually me acting on compulsions and 5% actually daydreaming
had to be bedbound for some time because it got really bad now it isn't as bad as it once was but still sucks i was actually making a lot of progress but people with "savior" complex had to drag me back to almost square one
can't even enjoy my final days because nothing i like can be enjoyed with this semi-crippling conditions. it fucking sucks

 

[gunmetalblue11]

I also have OCD and I hate it. It's so tiring. The compulsions control everything and if they can't be done I completely stop functioning.
I'm sorry you're going through this, I wish you peace.

 

[astr4]

yep yep yep and you tell yourself you're being absurd and it's not logical at all but your brain gets so stuck on just this one thing

i describe it as my brain being on fire that's what it feels like, like i'm a robot and my circuits are fried, i'm short circuiting or something

sending you all hugs ocd is fucking awful

 

[cakedog]

I also have OCD and I hate it. It's so tiring. The compulsions control everything and if they can't be done I completely stop functioning.
I'm sorry you're going through this, I wish you peace.

yeah you're right this sucks it drains us and only makes us more miserable
hope you can find peace too and finally move on from this disease

yep yep yep and you tell yourself you're being absurd and it's not logical at all but your brain gets so stuck on just this one thing

i describe it as my brain being on fire that's what it feels like, like i'm a robot and my circuits are fried, i'm short circuiting or something

sending you all hugs ocd is fucking awful

that's a very accurate description and you're right my brain feels stuck unless i act on my compulsions which sucks because i don't even have the willpower to question or resist them anymore
sending hugs to you too friend

 

[unluckysadness]

I have all the time fictional conversations in my head with real or fictional people. And other OCD. Since I'm on this forum, I have fictional conversations in english which is not my native language. I'm sure I have autism but I don't want to do any other tests (I did tests 10 years ago and the conclusion was : no Asperger syndrome) but my psychiatrist says I'm neurodivergent and I can be autistic. Nevermind I'm planning to leave in the next months so I don't give a shit anymore. But yes, intrusive thoughts really sucks and can kill you.