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Fish_Princess

Fish_Princess

Fish out of water
Apr 5, 2023
14
What do I do when I know my mental is bad but its so internalized. It started when I realized I dont want to do art or crafts because it feels so meaningless. My art is isnt good and it feels like a waste of time. Whatever I craft is useless afterwards.
Now I know its not true, i can craft bookmarks or keychains. I can draw to be creative and let that flow.

But recently I realized it just boils down to how I feel so meaningless. Nothing I do is good and all these negative thoughts that just keep hitting me where it hurts. It makes me wonder why i feel so much weight just trying to live and do things

I scroll and scroll on social media just bc then im not thinking and if im not thinking I cant have these thoughts. But i know theyre wrong so why do i still think like this.

Makes me really sad. And apart of me wants to give into it and the other knows i shouldnt and it makes trying to do anything, getting better, so much more confusing and harder.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Member
Jan 12, 2025
32
It really sucks to feel like this. I used to be more active. I used to read, play violin, learn about philosophy and stuff. Used to watch series and movies. I used to hit the gym and go to the swimming pool.

Nowadays I don't have the will to do any of that. It feels like a chore to do what I used to enjoy. Now I just listen music and smoke while scrolling social media which just makes it worse.

Maybe it is because I don't have anyone to share my experiences with.

"You read a book. Nice. But no one cares."

Because of this thought I feel like it is in vain.

I don't know how to overcome this but know you are not alone.
 
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Frozen Blood

Frozen Blood

still trying after all
Jan 9, 2025
11
I feel the exact same way. I know my mental health is bad, but I internalized so much shit that aren't true about me during my crisis that it "became" my truth now.

It did not help that I had some antagonists that would make me feel worse, like my boss that says horrible things about my work or one of my ex that decided that I made her sick because of my own depression.

But is important to recognize, even when you can't believe it that much, that you, INDEED, can do good stuff. That your art is valid, as any other is.

I would advise you to find another ways to run away from your thoughts, because I really believe doomscrolling is one of the major reasons a lot of people are getting worse in the last couple of years.

Good luck and enjoy your art, it's the most beautiful thing we can do as humans!
 

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