interests

[idontknow42]

anyone just have no interests in life, i say as in things they enjoy to do. but not a loss of interests, ive never had interests my whole life. my life has resolved around money, since very young

i enjoy nothing. i spent all my teenage years stressing about money

people don't understand when they ask me what i enjoy to do and i say nothing

 

[jodes2]

My interests come and go. It sucks being out of money. So fucking boring. The emptiness that comes with BPD and depression SUCKS. So bored

 

[lionetta12]

anyone just have no interests in life, i say as in things they enjoy to do. but not a loss of interests, ive never had interests my whole life. my life has resolved around money, since very young

i enjoy nothing. i spent all my teenage years stressing about money

people don't understand when they ask me what i enjoy to do and i say nothing

I lie when I say ah I enjoy this and that because I don't enjoy anything really. I'm just playing the game of life like 80% of people seem to be doing and pretending to be happy from now on, since it works for most other people. I feel «happy» if I'm tipsy but I don't have that much of an interest in alcohol since I grew up around alcoholics and my new faith doesn't allow alcohol, which I'm fine with. I'm trying hard to find something that brings me some joy but I've tried a lot of different things now and I just feel nothing.

 

[suisuiforum]

I guess there are things I enjoy over others in general, but in terms of having something that I'm invested in, things I actually look forward to so that I'd be willing to live another day, I have absolutely none of those. Many people are here on SS because they suffer from debilitating physical and/or mental illnesses, but I'm not sure if that would accurately describe myself, as my main motivation for wanting to CTB is because I simply don't enjoy life to the level where all the negative aspects of it would be worthwhile. Money is definitely important for survival in this day and age, but It's also coveted throughout society mainly to be exchanged for goods and services that would enhance our lives beyond just basic necessities. Since I don't care about anything else in life besides financial stability to ensure survival, what if I simply don't want to survive? What then? If we are uninterested in life why is it still seen as some illness rather than a reasonable mindset and opinion to have?

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never found existence to be enjoyable at all in my case, and I believe that the fact that life in no way interests me is a reason as to why I could never wish to exist under any circumstances. I simply don't find the thought of existing to be appealing at all, and the very nature and reality of existence is something that I despise. I've never wanted to be here and I've never even felt content with existing, my days have always been spent wishing that I wasn't here.