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nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
145
I know for a fact now that I'll die in the next three weeks.

Interacting with other people, friends and family or acquaintances, is so odd to me now. I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to do and that they don't know. When we're together I wonder what they'll think of the time we spent together once I'm gone. If there's anything that will make them feel guilty or if they don't care at all. Anyone else have this?
 
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skitliv

Le mort joyeux
Jul 11, 2018
485
I have those thoughts too, it feel very surreal to say the least
 
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Ssname

Experienced
Jun 30, 2018
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I sometimes have this when I am talking to someone. Just kind of stop and think "this doesn't matter at all"
 
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nuclearsnake

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Jul 11, 2018
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I sometimes have this when I am talking to someone. Just kind of stop and think "this doesn't matter at all"

It is strange that I know that we will have seen each other for the last time while they do not.
 
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agreement

Mage
Mar 26, 2018
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I've not a big social life because of depression, lately I've been careful to not call or message any friend even if I was feeling to.
The point is that if I've not spoken with someone in the last six months and I die, he could still think/pretend that we weren't that close anymore and so on.
Instead if I call the same person and have a friend-to-friend talk and I die after a week, he would not be able to pretend that we weren't that friends anymore.
The amount of good that arrives for me from that call isn't worth the extra amount of pain of my friend.
 
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