want2dienow
Atari hazure?
- Jul 24, 2022
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conditions have worsen for me forward and
I:
-am chronically suicidal; i actively try/retry methods hoping one of them works for the day
-do not eat. by and not by choice. besides ive come to hate eating, , but occasional i'm made to eat one small thing not more than 300 calrioes.
-have poor vision. with glasses my vision is very poor, i have very strong prescriptions (lens are ~2+ quarters thick).
-have chronic pain. head pain, arm main (feels like something rushing) chest pain; i dunno the cause dont care to check it, quite sure its the suicidal, pain, mental agony and past failed attempts this month.
-the only thing i can do when not trying methods, or when past 7:00pm is event fk, but my enegry then is so low i cant.
-have terrible foot pain; i cant stand for more than 30 minutes i had surgery in '06 and have metal rods in both ankles as well. these rods are still there and they will move as i walk, causing pain. as far as i know, the last doctor wanted to shave the bone my foot and reconstruct it, the tendons and all,causing even more immobility. i have been extra suicidal since, it hasnt deterred.
-everyday i have make dinner or be hit and touched.
- everything i was suppled from my years in wards, threapy, etc. be— a journal; its event code and text strings for fk. i cannot vent i have no voice, so i come here to try. i fail.
do you think i can earn any income ?
I:
-am chronically suicidal; i actively try/retry methods hoping one of them works for the day
-do not eat. by and not by choice. besides ive come to hate eating, , but occasional i'm made to eat one small thing not more than 300 calrioes.
-have poor vision. with glasses my vision is very poor, i have very strong prescriptions (lens are ~2+ quarters thick).
-have chronic pain. head pain, arm main (feels like something rushing) chest pain; i dunno the cause dont care to check it, quite sure its the suicidal, pain, mental agony and past failed attempts this month.
-the only thing i can do when not trying methods, or when past 7:00pm is event fk, but my enegry then is so low i cant.
-have terrible foot pain; i cant stand for more than 30 minutes i had surgery in '06 and have metal rods in both ankles as well. these rods are still there and they will move as i walk, causing pain. as far as i know, the last doctor wanted to shave the bone my foot and reconstruct it, the tendons and all,causing even more immobility. i have been extra suicidal since, it hasnt deterred.
-everyday i have make dinner or be hit and touched.
- everything i was suppled from my years in wards, threapy, etc. be— a journal; its event code and text strings for fk. i cannot vent i have no voice, so i come here to try. i fail.
do you think i can earn any income ?