Help In three days.

[gelee126]

I'm planning on committing suicide in 3 days.
I still have parts of me that act like I won't, but I haven't been able to stop thinking about taking my life away on the day ever since I could remember.
Although, to think this year is finally the year to do it seems a bit surreal.

I get anxious during researches and plannings.
I still wish some miracle would happen that would allow me to live on.

But I also feel like it is the perfect opportunity, perhaps my only opportunity.
Everything turned out perfectly. All I have to do is do it.

I want to go. I have no hope left. I have no strength to push myself beyond the day. I'm scared to say I'll live.
Is it okay to be scared? Is it ok to still not be sure, but absolutely sure at the same time?
Will none of this matter on the actual day of departure?

How do you find serenity in death ?

 

[Ghost2211]

If you are feeling hesitation or fear, or the desire for hope it may not be the best time to ctb. Would you like to talk about why you're sad?

 

[S1mpleme]

What kind of miracle would make you to live on?

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Don't let the universe decide for you. Just because factors outside your control seem to fall in to place, that's no reason to try and convince yourself it's time to go.

We're really good at listening here. Tell us about yourself and how you got here.