In a mess

[Wantingpeace]

Sorry posting so much in just need to vent here.

I have prescription medication damage and I've been in an excruciating unlivable conditoon three years. I literally feel that parts of frontal lobe have been severed from rest of brain. Feels like vaccum at front of brain leading to complete loss of sense of life around me and severe cognitive problems. The drug also produced awful visions and a near death experience on off 3 years ..hence the terror of death.

On top feels like brain is burning in acid..just gets worse. So desperate for relief. The desperation terror and cognitive problems is not helping in planning ending life but I can't live like this. Is just unlivable every second.

 

[Lara Francis]

I am sorry. That sounds awful.
Have you thought of assisted suicide,you may qualify.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Thank you yes i thought of but many hurdles..money..process take so long and the medical profession deny this happened so I cannot get a proper diagnosis. And length of time I have to leave soon I cannot bear much longer.

 

[Lara Francis]

There is way too much red tape around assisted suicide.it should be far more easier and less expensive.I really feel for you.This site should give you choices and all the information you need.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Thank you I'm having trouble understanding anything and putting plans into action. I need a day break so I can plan this but brain won't co operate .

 

[Avicii]

I am sorry. That sounds awful.
Have you thought of assisted suicide,you may qualify.

Problem with assisted is they charge nearly £10k to top yourself I think anyway

 

[Wantingpeace]

Problem with assisted is they charge nearly £10k to top yourself I think anyway

Yes and then travel costs and body back to own country etc

 

[Midnight]

That sounds so awfull. I can only imagine what it must be like for you to live like this. I hope you find what you want/need on the forum. The fact that the medical institutions won't help you or even recognize the problem is fucked up.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Thank you I just wish my brain would go back to normal for some time so I can work this out..I can't risk just more damage

 

[Ampsvx123]

Were you forced to take those pills? I really hope you succeed and find rest.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Thank you ..No is long story. Was improperly prescribed at young age which led to years of nightmare side effects but terrible withdrawals. They switched me to another drug to try and come off first and disaster in brain. There are quite a number of us severely harmed by unnessary drugging.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Thank you to all who answered my posts last few days ..my brain has decided to work a bit more now so i can actually plan a bit..thanks for help..was struggling to read anything long enough to figure out anything.

 

[RacilyDank]

Thank you to all who answered my posts last few days ..my brain has decided to work a bit more now so i can actually plan a bit..thanks for help..was struggling to read anything long enough to figure out anything.

Do you mind if I ask what drug it was?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

That sounds awful, so sorry to hear of your suffering.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Do you mind if I ask what drug it was?

It was Prozac - but i may as well have had been taking actual posion..feel toxic in brain

 

[Wantingpeace]

Than

That sounds awful, so sorry to hear of your suffering.

Thank you is such a bizarre situation..I feel that the drug and the mental health system has unwittingly pushed me to my own death. And against my will.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yes i am..neurotoxicty group..

Apart from being totally destroyed it is absolutely terrifying because I can't work out how the hell can be happening and drs cant figure out that thecdrugs did this

 

[Wantingpeace]

Pm me..

 

[RacilyDank]

It was Prozac - but i may as well have had been taking actual posion..feel toxic in brain

I've been on that before. It was absolutely horrible. I went a pale green complexion, grinding my teeth, couldn't think or talk, couldn't feel the ground beneath my feet.

Luckily I came off it after 3 days on my doctors advice. I've a similar reaction to every SSRI. Terrible drugs

 

[Wantingpeace]

They sure are. I stayed on it as I was very confused we told all pains etc in head was side effects..I still have three years later and strangely is just my imagination now according to drs.

I think I had very rare reaction. At some point I felt poison eneter head..distinct poison feeling and I heard felt something fry away in right side of brain. When the frying finished I lost all sense of outside world front of brain shutdown and entered physical mental torture.absolutely unbelievable.

 

[Wantingpeace]

I've been on that before. It was absolutely horrible. I went a pale green complexion, grinding my teeth, couldn't think or talk, couldn't feel the ground beneath my feet.

Luckily I came off it after 3 days on my doctors advice. I've a similar reaction to every SSRI. Terrible drugs

Good you came off. No lasting damage?

 

[RacilyDank]

Good you came off. No lasting damage?

Not that I'm aware of. Felt back to 'normal' as soon as I stopped. Only tried it through desperation. Same with citalopram

 

[Wantingpeace]

Have you heard about Kelly brogan? She used to swear by these drugs but only uses natural methods now..diet changes etc..doesn't work for me after this damage. Just wish had found tried natural stuff before.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Is just terrifying I keep going into rages and hurting self but i have no memory of hurting self while in rage. I'm going to end up doing self severe injury and being alive in worse.

I don't feel can be much support to others as is such strange state. Is like i can feel sadness for family but no sense they are actually there as the world outside world seems gone. Or if someone on here is talking about loneliness, which I can remember I used to feel I can't conjure up any feeling for person as I can't relate to a lot of normal human stuff nor the actual person is there. There is so much just gone. And i used to be really empathetic people person and I hate it.