Imaging what happens after you commit suicide

[Tiktok]

I have a plan on how to commit suicide. Just thinking on what happens afterwards is so absurd to me.
so I live with my family but I really hate them (mom and sister). I don't care at all about them when I commit suicide or on how it's going to impact them. And so I will not leave any suicide note and my death will come by surprise.
I live in a building and each apartment has a storage room. I think the best method for me is drug overdose. I could ask my mom for the key a few days in advance (so she won't suspect I went there) and once i do it I'm going to lock the storage room, I'll leave my phone in my home too so no one could track where I went.
im home all the time (except when I'm at work), so my mom will be confused as to where I went if I left my phone in my house but I'm not there?
A few hours will pass and by that time I will be dead already, locked inside the storage room.
A day will go by and I haven't showed up to work. The manager will call me but no one will answer. I think my mom will start to lose it the day after.
Now she will start having ideas as to where I went. She literally could think of anything and not come to the conclusion I committed suicide, since I will not be showing signs that I'm suicidal.
she will must think I flew to a different country since she knows how much I hate my own country. So my dead body could be rotting for days without her knowing a thing. Then she might file a missing person Report to the police. Since they will get access to my phone, maybe only after that it will be known I commit suicide (after long research on my phone).
Once it has been cleared I died or attempted suicide, they will want to know where I did it. I think no one will think of the storage room in our building. But definitely one day my mom will want to go there (she goes there maybe once a few months) and she'll realize she doesn't have the key. And THEN she'll know.

lol I wrote all of this to share my imagination, but what about you? I'm curious to hear on how your relatives are going to find out.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Thank you for asking. I needed to think this through more. I don't care if anyone reads this or reacts, I'm doing some external processing here.

My parents will be notified by the government that I died in another country. My dad will refuse to identify my body or accept my remains. Then my mom will start making it about her. She'll be upset and feel sorry for herself. She won't know what to tell her friends and extended family who she and my dad lied to and told that we were still in lovingly touch albeit long distance (they shunned me several years ago for demanding they take responsibility for my mother's physical abuse, but publicly claimed we'd remained close). My dad will just get more angry at me and more closed off to my mom and everyone else as he always does when I'm the one being wronged. My mom will decide how to spin my death, make up a story, maybe even decide to claim my body, publish an obituary, and have a funeral. My dad will go along with what she wants or explode, literally, with a heart attack or stroke from all the years of going along with her controlling bullshit. Or she'll decide to leave my body and make up a story about why it wasn't shipped home, and have no right to publish an obituary, which she'll also have to make up a reason for. Whatever they do, it will be to cover their own asses and look blameless. They'll convince themselves I've done something horrible to them by doing something that has nothing to do with them.

I don't want an obituary, I don't want them to take possession of my remains. I may send a delayed message threatening that they will be outed if there's an obituary, just to make sure I get what I want, and let them figure out how to manage their lies and make up new ones when they have no ability to publish an untrue story about my passing. It will put them in quite an awkward position, but I didn't create the situation.

I have compassion for their impending suffering, but I'm also unsympathetic to their lying. I don't want to punish them (okay I do a little bit), but I have personal reasons why I don't want an obituary, and if I send a delayed message with rational, reasonable requests, they'll still do what the fuck they want to do. I might just say screw it, I'll be dead anyway, and hope they don't publish one, which they might not out of self-preservation.

It really pisses me off that they're so psycho I have to make threats rather than use reason to get my needs met with them. I have zero control over the fact my parents will be notified as my next of kin, I'd prefer not.

 

[Cedi]

I have a plan on how to commit suicide. Just thinking on what happens afterwards is so absurd to me.
so I live with my family but I really hate them (mom and sister). I don't care at all about them when I commit suicide or on how it's going to impact them. And so I will not leave any suicide note and my death will come by surprise.
I live in a building and each apartment has a storage room. I think the best method for me is drug overdose. I could ask my mom for the key a few days in advance (so she won't suspect I went there) and once i do it I'm going to lock the storage room, I'll leave my phone in my home too so no one could track where I went.
im home all the time (except when I'm at work), so my mom will be confused as to where I went if I left my phone in my house but I'm not there?
A few hours will pass and by that time I will be dead already, locked inside the storage room.
A day will go by and I haven't showed up to work. The manager will call me but no one will answer. I think my mom will start to lose it the day after.
Now she will start having ideas as to where I went. She literally could think of anything and not come to the conclusion I committed suicide, since I will not be showing signs that I'm suicidal.
she will must think I flew to a different country since she knows how much I hate my own country. So my dead body could be rotting for days without her knowing a thing. Then she might file a missing person Report to the police. Since they will get access to my phone, maybe only after that it will be known I commit suicide (after long research on my phone).
Once it has been cleared I died or attempted suicide, they will want to know where I did it. I think no one will think of the storage room in our building. But definitely one day my mom will want to go there (she goes there maybe once a few months) and she'll realize she doesn't have the key. And THEN she'll know.

lol I wrote all of this to share my imagination, but what about you? I'm curious to hear on how your relatives are going to find out.

What makes you think that your mom will forget that she gave you the key? If someone disappear they will recall it. It almost seems like you just want to hurt your mother. Cant you just leave? I see youre working.

 

[Tiktok]

What makes you think that your mom will forget that she gave you the key? If someone disappear they will recall it. It almost seems like you just want to hurt your mother. Cant you just leave? I see youre working.

She will not give me the key, it's being stored somewhere and I'll simply ask where does she usually put it in?
Yes I want to hurt her because she's a horrible person???
What does the last sentence even mean???

 

[BlackCatTalk]

I believe that in my case the police will be notified, because suicide is always open to investigation, they will try to find my family, they will notify my sister, they will take my body to the morgue where while they dictate an obvious suicide that also they will not care because it is not from their family they will tell jokes, then they will deliver my body to the funeral home and it will be another job, then a funeral, there will be almost no one, I am not very popular, most surely no one will go, then crematorium and the world will continue so happy party, the truth is I don't care what happens, I'll be dead already....The only important thing is that I will leave an online diary and a physical diary where I include my ctb report, my method and reasons, but exclude sites and people

 

[Cedi]

She will not give me the key, it's being stored somewhere and I'll simply ask where does she usually put it in?
Yes I want to hurt her because she's a horrible person???
What does the last sentence even mean???

You are asking her for the keys, mate. What is the difference? Good chance she will recall it if you get missing. What does the last sentence mean? Really? I asked why you can't leave your mom's house. You seem to be working and have a paycheck. How old are you?
I am going to be honest. I think it is wrong to use your suicide to hurt someone. And by that you also hope she will find you when your body is rotten too. You are not looking this through. The police will search for you and the first place they will be looking is your house incl. Storage room. Don't think the police are dumb, they deal with allot of suicides and people gone missing.

 

[ReadySince94]

I always imagined once I'm pronounced dead the line of phone calls & text messages would start in my family. The fake tears will begin to shed, the fake apologies will be spoken.. idk I just feel like it'll be one fake soap oprah for like a week or so then back to normal activities lol

 

[ghostlysoap]

In my case I plan to go to the woods behind my house.

It's a big mountain range and it's a beautiful big wooded area. There deep in the woods is my favourite place where I used to lay in the grass for hours and look at the sky. I would just call several people on the phone and have a normal happy good conversation and tell them how much I love them one last time and that I will see them soon. Afterwards I will choose a tree and hang myself. No one will find me for days probably. But I will finally be at peace.

 

[Aleandra Felix]

I always imagined once I'm pronounced dead the line of phone calls & text messages would start in my family. The fake tears will begin the shed, the fake apologies will be spoken.. idk I just feel like it'll be one fake soap oprah for like a week or so then back to normal activities lol

Same. My mom already told me I'm better off dead, told me to kill myself and stuff. Then, when they find my body she will obviously make it about herself, put herself as the victim and oh, God, how much she is suffering. "She did everything for me and has no idea why I'd do such thing". A few weeks later everything would be back to normal. Maybe she will miss her punchbag, but she'll probably find another scapegoat