I completely agree that this world is hell and it's absolutely horrifying that in a world like this, people are denied peaceful ways to exit. I do view existence as being both a burden and a prison, we are forced here without choice, have to endure this pointless and unnecessary existence and yet they make it as difficult for us to leave as possible. It really shouldn't be a crime for someone to exit peacefully, it's just so wrong how the world is this way. The amount of cruelty and suffering that exists is exactly why the thought of non existence is so appealing.