Venting I'm worried I'm going to impulsively CTB

[sunny]

ofc i'd rather plan it out so i can hide it from my online friends + clear my devices + write notes (?) etc but i'm a very impulsive person
when i used to sh i would do it so quickly after i had gotten upset at something that i had no time to think until after it was over

 

[Stormy Raine]

If you are scared you can always call a friend over to spend the night but don't tell them your plans! Pretend you want to watch a movie, that way you will be safe

 

[Holu]

Aside from simply avoiding events that could trigger such an impulsive reaction I'm not really sure what else you could do to prevent besides keeping methods out of reach which also doesn't seem ideal should you intent to go out soon.

Also, in all fairness, assuming you're an atheist and don't believe in an afterlife then it won't really matter, at least to you it won't.

 

[bluebus]

I feel like it is not so easy to compulsively kys. Depending on your method, you will not likely end up in pain/ harming your body but not dead. It sucks but in order to be successful, you really have to know what you're doing. At least that's what I've gathered from being on this site. I am really sorry that you are in this much pain. I hope you can find peace. Best of luck,

 

[Holu]

I feel like it is not so easy to compulsively kys. Depending on your method, you will not likely end up in pain/ harming your body but not dead. It sucks but in order to be successful, you really have to know what you're doing. At least that's what I've gathered from being on this site. I am really sorry that you are in this much pain. I hope you can find peace. Best of luck,

It's def not but mental illness is also a bitch. My BPD friend took her life just like that, no real prep or plan. Ik she was suicidal, ik she was shing and impulsive and I knew she wasn't long for the world but it still surprised me nonetheless. Poor thing had a shitty experience with her bf and just ended up doing it after.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Next time you're upset come on here and vent instead, and we'll give you support and talk you out of anything you might be wanting to do impulsively. Other poster suggesting you ask a friend over is a good idea as well. I don't think you should be alone when feeling like that. And promise yourself that no matter how you feel in the moment, you will at least sleep on it and see how you feel tomorrow.

 

[bluebus]

It's def not but mental illness is also a bitch. My BPD friend took her life just like that, no real prep or plan. Ik she was suicidal, ik she was shing and impulsive and I knew she wasn't long for the world but it still surprised me nonetheless. Poor thing had a shitty experience with her bf and just ended up doing it after.

So sorry to hear about that. Losing a friend (especially a really close one) is like losing a piece of yourself. How old was she if you don't mind me asking. I lost my best friend when he was 16 to accidental od

 

[jar-baby]

I don't really know what your method would be but maybe you could try making it harder for yourself by hiding the things you'd need (SN/N/Nitrogen + apparatus/razors). Maybe locking them up and putting the key somewhere not easily accessible. Or asking a friend or family to keep the key for you and making up a lie about what it's for if needed.

 

[Holu]

So sorry to hear about that. Losing a friend (especially a really close one) is like losing a piece of yourself. How old was she if you don't mind me asking. I lost my best friend when he was 16 to accidental od

Nono not children. We were "adults". She was a year older than me at 21. Last I had a conversation with her I convinced her to have a convo with her bf about their poly relationship and the emotional abuse she was receiving as a result from it. I never got to know how bad it went.

 

[bluebus]

Nono not children. We were "adults". She was a year older than me at 21. Last I had a conversation with her I convinced her to have a convo with her bf about their poly relationship and the emotional abuse she was receiving as a result from it. I never got to know how bad it went.

I'm really sorry to hear about that. 21 is still very young. At least she has found peace.
It never gets easier, losing someone you love. It's been 4 years (I was 15 at the time of his death) and I still miss him. Now I will be joining him soon I guess. Just a little too late

 

[Holu]

I'm really sorry to hear about that. 21 is still very young. At least she has found peace.
It never gets easier, losing someone you love. It's been 4 years (I was 15 at the time of his death) and I still miss him. Now I will be joining him soon I guess. Just a little too late

Ye me personally I consider everyone under 25 to be a child in some regard since their brain hasn't fully developed.

And for your situation, it's never too late. A little late maybe, but we all go at our different times.

 

[UKscotty]

Impulsive I'd probably the best way, just get it over and done with.

Planning and setting dates is the reason it hadn't worked for me. I'm a coward and use planning the next stupid method as a cop out.

 

[TheMetalhead]

Impulsive may or not be even worse for some people. For me it was worse after I impulsively started to stab myself with a knife simply because I had a knife in my pocket.
Planned attempt may be stopped in one way or another, be it by yourself or a person close to you. I unfortunately was saved by a lady who called police on me, not knowing I was trying to CTB yet, simply because I was doing weird things with a knife and crying my lungs out.