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- Aug 31, 2024
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My mind has been a severe depression fog for the last few months. It's really weird going about daily tasks and still living a "normal" life while contemplating whether or not you want to end it all.
But even as my brain has started to just detach from all the things going on, I still care about those around me. My friends and my family. My friends would be hurt no doubt, but they'll move on.
My family... I just don't know if I could do this to them. My brothers, my mom, my dad. My parents are older in age, no doubt this would ruin the rest of their lives. My dad is quite a pessimist and struggles dealing with major events (quite similarly to me) - he once contemplated suicide because he caught one of my siblings smoking weed.
I don't know... I'm in so much pain that I don't see improving. I don't see myself suffering through life just to keep those around me happy. But at the same time, it would be an unbelievably terrible thing to do to my family.
But even as my brain has started to just detach from all the things going on, I still care about those around me. My friends and my family. My friends would be hurt no doubt, but they'll move on.
My family... I just don't know if I could do this to them. My brothers, my mom, my dad. My parents are older in age, no doubt this would ruin the rest of their lives. My dad is quite a pessimist and struggles dealing with major events (quite similarly to me) - he once contemplated suicide because he caught one of my siblings smoking weed.
I don't know... I'm in so much pain that I don't see improving. I don't see myself suffering through life just to keep those around me happy. But at the same time, it would be an unbelievably terrible thing to do to my family.