Venting I'm trying

[KrowaKovsky]

I try and try to be the best version of myself, yet here I am, being roasted by the ones I love pretty much unprovoked. I know I suck at giving empathetic responses and properly voicing my opinions but I am at the very least trying. I'm only trying to better myself because I love them more than anything.

Why isn't it enough? Why can't I be good enough for anyone? It's really disheartening and makes me not really want to try anymore. It makes me not want to stick around and not self sabotage so they'll leave me. It makes me want to die. I've been working really hard only for them to curb stomp me.

But I know what I'll get in the morning, "I'm sorry for last night, it wasn't meant to come off that way."

1 step forward to recovery and 5 steps back.

 

[Valky]

Sadly this is often the truth…people don't see your progress. They are shaming you for not trying when you are doing your best to hold on. But that doesn't mean what they are saying is true. You are trying and that is all that matters. Every day is a successful day. I see your effort and I am proud of you <3

 

[Eyris]

you are doing what is good for you and no one can change that fact, no matter how deep their words go. people remember things
that you did wrong or fucked up but that isn't what defines you. no matter how hard they try they cannot influence you if you stay strong and know that you are still trying and improving. keep your flame alive don't let a passing gust of wind put it out

 

[FuneralCry]

Humans really can be so unnecessarily cruel, it's awful how other people are just so insensitive and make things worse. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Mord.]

Sometimes people can't understand what one is dealing with, or simply they don't recognize what they think it's important to them.but all that matters is that effort you put to improve and be better everyday and that's something to be proud of

 

[endofafoxtwo]

:( <3
Hey, I mean at least your family bothers to apologize. That has to mean something, at least.

 

[SoftWorries]

You can just stop trying to be the best version of yourself if it's hurting you. You can try to be the version of yourself that feels the best or has the most fun.

 

[Suwa]

Whoever these people are, they're clearly not right. You're doing amazing, I promise you that. You are doing the best you can, and I respect you very much for that. Keep holding on, and maybe things shall get better.
But really, these people seem like they are only harming you. Maybe you should cut them off. Be with someone who really loves you for who you are. I know it's easier said than done, but I promise you that a person like that is out there.