I'm too cowardly to die

[forbidden_rest13]

I just want to give up. I feel like I'm such a toxic person and no matter how hard I try I am still terrible. I feel like if I do things the way I want them people will take notice and they'll stop me, and I feel like I will not have another opportunity. I just want to stop eating and starve to death while I'm in nature with no one around. But there's always the potential for someone to find me and start asking questions. I don't want to drown myself because I'm really afraid of water. Hypothermia seems like a good option but if I'm stopped then I risk frostbite and brain damage. I wish there was a safe place I could go with no one else there

 

[lost_one]

What is a good person to you? what would be their qualities? Do you want to be a good person?

I feel lilke for most people being a "good" person is hard, it means, not doing what you want ( like not screaming or being mad and passive agressive with someone that really annoys you) for me at least it means sometimes giving up on what you want for others, so that they can get what they want. Being selfless someone told me. It's not easy and you will need to sacrifice some things, but at the same time you are human and you are not going to be able to be selfless and kind all the time.

Your feelings are always valid, but somethimes the thought process that lead to that felling is faulty. "What I like to say to myself sometimes is I am good, but I am not that good" I gives me room, to make mistakes. Although it is something I sttrugle with I won't lie. It is really up to you what you want, good luck

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be free from it all, I always wish there's the option to just choose to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, it feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence with risks of trying to die going wrong being there, it's horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to much worse suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I just want to give up. I feel like I'm such a toxic person and no matter how hard I try I am still terrible. I feel like if I do things the way I want them people will take notice and they'll stop me, and I feel like I will not have another opportunity. I just want to stop eating and starve to death while I'm in nature with no one around. But there's always the potential for someone to find me and start asking questions. I don't want to drown myself because I'm really afraid of water. Hypothermia seems like a good option but if I'm stopped then I risk frostbite and brain damage. I wish there was a safe place I could go with no one else there

This is the fate that seals us all to being doomed in a world like this. I don't believe you are a coward in this case. You're frightened like most of us are... You have to choose, and like me, when I had no other choice but to betray someone who was somewhat nurturing to me because I had no choice but to have a start at a life I never knew at then 18 and hurt someone dear to me, it was fear that day that made me frightened to lie, because there is no choice to this... It is sadly a life or death situation that when you don't recognize something you never faced, you will be scared. Don't feel pressure to hating yourself for it. Give yourself some space and room, because often then not, the reality is... it's very scary to not truly be honest in this world without being hurt in the process, and I rather want out from it