I’m tired

[venin]

I'm tired. I'm tired of this existence. I'm tired of waking up feeling this awful. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of losing hope. I'm tired of regaining hope. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of not being able to be myself. I'm tired of not being able to fructify my potential, my work and the years that have passed. I'm tired of dumb, insensitive zombies around me having everything although they don't deserve it. I'm tired of bad people not being held accountable for their deeds and living waaay better lives than decent, kind and intelligent human beings. I'm tired of my past and my trauma. I'm tired of depression and anxiety. I'm tired of humanity and consumerism. I'm tired of shallowness. I'm tired of not being loved, and seen, and understood and appreciated. I'm tired of loneliness and failure and the lack of human connection in my life. I'm tired of having to eat and sleep and wash myself. I am tired of meds and therapies. I'm tired of everything that involves mental health. I'm tired of my life, and myself the way I am right now after everything wicked that happened to me.

I'm tired.

& I'm tired of us, being here, searching for peaceful ways to get the fuck out of this torturous existence.

It wasn't enough that we went what we went through. Not even our deaths can be peaceful. What a fucking prison this life is.

 

[Kip]

I'm tired too. I'm done. This evening I finally rest permanently. 61 years was enough.

 

[venin]

I'm tired too. I'm done. This evening I finally rest permanently. 61 years was enough.

I'm honestly happy for you

I say this from the bottom of my heart

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of being trapped here, it's truly so cruel and terrible how we cannot just permanently escape from all the suffering in a peaceful way, it must be really dreadful what you have to endure.

 

[venin]

I understand feeling so tired of being trapped here, it's truly so cruel and terrible how we cannot just permanently escape from all the suffering in a peaceful way, it must be really dreadful what you have to endure.

It truly is…

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

I'm tired. I'm tired of this existence. I'm tired of waking up feeling this awful. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of losing hope. I'm tired of regaining hope. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of not being able to be myself. I'm tired of not being able to fructify my potential, my work and the years that have passed. I'm tired of dumb, insensitive zombies around me having everything although they don't deserve it. I'm tired of bad people not being held accountable for their deeds and living waaay better lives than decent, kind and intelligent human beings. I'm tired of my past and my trauma. I'm tired of depression and anxiety. I'm tired of humanity and consumerism. I'm tired of shallowness. I'm tired of not being loved, and seen, and understood and appreciated. I'm tired of loneliness and failure and the lack of human connection in my life. I'm tired of having to eat and sleep and wash myself. I am tired of meds and therapies. I'm tired of everything that involves mental health. I'm tired of my life, and myself the way I am right now after everything wicked that happened to me.

I'm tired.

& I'm tired of us, being here, searching for peaceful ways to get the fuck out of this torturous existence.

It wasn't enough that we went what we went through. Not even our deaths can be peaceful. What a fucking prison this life is.

I feel the same as much as it's possible to feel.... and I'm really sorry..... I know how exhausting it all is.....

 

[eashanm]

I wish we could all choose a self elective willful death, leave the body consciously at a time of our choosing.

 

[venin]

I feel the same as much as it's possible to feel.... and I'm really sorry..... I know how exhausting it all is.....

Sorry to hear you're also experiencing this

I wish we could all choose a self elective willful death, leave the body consciously at a time of our choosing.

It would be nice. I think I'd go in an instant

 

[Dead Already]

I'm tired too. I'm done. This evening I finally rest permanently. 61 years was enough.

I'm not far behind you in life and death the world has changed dramatically to the dark side in our lifetimes, not that it was rainbows and butterflies before.
It took strength and courage to hold out this long, nothing but respect.
Peace be with you Brother