I'm tired. Partial hanging help

[IndyAna]

I've been trying on and off to CTB since 2016. I've tried ODing and partial hanging. A few months ago I almost succeeded at partial, but for some reason the rope got loose and I hit my head at the end of my bed lmao. I was so freaking close, I've tried again after some weeks but I couldn't find that "sweet spot" on my neck that made me black out immediately. Ever since my SI kicks in and I just can't. I also live with my parents and my brother and I'd hate it if they had to find me like this. I'm thinking of booking a hotel but I need to succeed this time, I'm tired of this.

 

[jodes2]

Partial is hard to get right. Out of 20 attempts I came close a couple of times, blacked out but then I guess my heart compensated and woke me up. Banged my head against stuff and had numb patches over my body afterwards. It's definitely not a foolproof method. Very unreliable

 

[IndyAna]

Partial is hard to get right. Out of 20 attempts I came close a couple of times, blacked out but then I guess my heart compensated and woke me up. Banged my head against stuff and had numb patches over my body afterwards. It's definitely not a foolproof method. Very unreliable

I know right? I'm sorry you had to get through 20 attempts, this is so unfair

 

[jodes2]

I know right? I'm sorry you had to get through 20 attempts, this is so unfair

Yeah if I'd had SN back then I'd have taken that instead, a lot easier

 

[AerialBoundaries]

This is my method of choice when the time comes.

I have precautions in place, so I won't be found in time. To survive with permanent damage, would be a fate worse than death.

 

[Hopefully a helper]

Take some heroin and you can forget to breathe. That's how my uncle CTBed, if you have access, I'd recommend it. If you do it in the ocean/pool they probably won't even know it was drugs if you care about your parents (which I think is dumb since they selfishly brought you into this godforsaken world). The only way we discovered it was heroin that got my uncle is because he had a history. I don't know where you live, but in most places, it's pretty easy to find for about $130 a gram in the nearest city. It only takes about 1/5 of that to OD so if you've got $45 to spare and a willingness to go looking, I'd recommend it.