Venting I'm thinking this is goodbye.

[Kobusu]

I've lost everything today. I lost my job. I lost the first person in years who made me feel anything or want to be better or feel even the slightest amount of infatuation. I know I have things to "live for" and people who "need" me but I just don't care. I can't handle anymore I don't know how much more I'm supposed to be ok with or sit with or survive through or be strong enough through. I can't fucking do this anymore. It all hurts so fucking badly and I just want it to stop hurting. I can't handle this much loss I can't handle this much suffering. I'm an adult now. I can't make friends like I could in high school or college. We don't have the same time as adults. Only place I can meet people is work. Even then, work is mostly occupied with the whole "doing work" bit. It's impossible and I can't try anymore. I'm so tired of all of this. Everything. I can't do it anymore. I'm only really posting this because if there's ever a moment I'm gonna try again it would be today. I'm tired of pain and suffering. I'm tired of teetering in the edge of if I should recover or bite the bullet and do it again. I'm so fucking tired.

Mods if I'm not active in the next week I've done it and you're free to deactivate / delete my account. To everyone on SaSu, I wish you all the best. None of you deserve this suffering or pain that life causes us. None of you deserve to be here because there's nowhere else to go. I hope things get better for all of you, no matter where you're from or how you found your way here.

Maybe I'll see you guys around, maybe I won't.

 

[inmyhead]

I'm so sorry that life has brought you to this point. I wish you the best for the future whatever that may be.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about the perpetual suffering you are going through. I hope you find peace in the coming week or so, whether you choose to stay or exit this hellish existence.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this place in your life. I hope you can get to your peace any way you need to.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I feel sorry that life brought you to this point. I wish you all the best for yourfuture, you will take the right decisions. May you find freedom & peace! Good luck!

 

[SpiderLink]

I've lost everything today. I lost my job. I lost the first person in years who made me feel anything or want to be better or feel even the slightest amount of infatuation. I know I have things to "live for" and people who "need" me but I just don't care. I can't handle anymore I don't know how much more I'm supposed to be ok with or sit with or survive through or be strong enough through. I can't fucking do this anymore. It all hurts so fucking badly and I just want it to stop hurting. I can't handle this much loss I can't handle this much suffering. I'm an adult now. I can't make friends like I could in high school or college. We don't have the same time as adults. Only place I can meet people is work. Even then, work is mostly occupied with the whole "doing work" bit. It's impossible and I can't try anymore. I'm so tired of all of this. Everything. I can't do it anymore. I'm only really posting this because if there's ever a moment I'm gonna try again it would be today. I'm tired of pain and suffering. I'm tired of teetering in the edge of if I should recover or bite the bullet and do it again. I'm so fucking tired.

Mods if I'm not active in the next week I've done it and you're free to deactivate / delete my account. To everyone on SaSu, I wish you all the best. None of you deserve this suffering or pain that life causes us. None of you deserve to be here because there's nowhere else to go. I hope things get better for all of you, no matter where you're from or how you found your way here.

Maybe I'll see you guys around, maybe I won't.

I'm so sorry!!! I wish I could give u a hug right now, I relate to many things you've mentioned. I wish we could all just heal, or a true light to get us out of this place.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I hope you heal and find eternal peace with whatever decision you make…

 

[leeloosnow]

im so sorry kobusu you're such a kind and brilliant soul, i wish the world had given you better hand at life. you will be missed, and you will be remembered

 

[InTheDarkAlone]

I didn't have the chance to get to know you, but I feel much the same. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry life came down to this. Whatever you choose I wish you peace and rest. You will be thought of. Sending you a big hug.

 

[NoStanding]

I have lost someone close recently too. It is truly horrible, but now I just want to keep their memory alive (whether that matters or not). But yeah I understand the making friends as adults thing also. I mean there are workshops and similar things but like you said, work takes up too much time.

I hope life stops hurting as much for you and I hope you find something which makes living worthwhile for you.

 

[The anhedonic one]

So sorry you have reached the absolute pit of despair.
I wish you well whatever you decide.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here will always be dreadful no matter what and can only get worse, the only way in which it could get better for me is through permanently being free from this horrible world as the reality is that existence in itself is the true problem, existing beings are simply doomed to suffer as long as they stay here. But anyway I wish you the best as well.