I'm thinking about suicide even tho i have religious faith

[Hadnafoflife]

I'm of jewish belief and in Judaism it is believed that your sould will get a punishment in the afterlife if you kill yourself becouse it goes against the will of God (who has the right to decide when you will die) and after an extensive suffering you reincarnate, The only drawback I see to suicide is hurting loved ones but afterlife punishment isn't one of them becouse i suffered extensively in life so nothing could really be too much, God doesn't help me anyways despite all my prayers, I don't got a problem with being reincarnated again as long as I will not fuck up my next life