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ThatStateOfMind
Paragon
- Nov 13, 2021
- 996
I feel like I can't do anything right. I've been stressing over college and I can't do the assignments. I feel terrible, I cheated on a linear algebra assignment and ran to the bathroom and nearly threw up because I'm concerned that this will bite me in the ass.
I struggled hard with a biology chapter today as well, spending 3 hours on a single chapter which is longer than I used to have to spend on chapters.
I'm worried, I'm worried that I'll get into university and not be able to do the classes. I'm worried that I'll fail college. I'm worried that even if I pass, I wont be able to land a job. Do I even want a job in the field now considering how hard the classes are? And then, if I didn't want a job in this field, what would I even do with my life? I can't be a failure forever, I'll have to change something or die if college, those are the only two real options I'll be facing.
I don't know, I feel utterly worthless, useless, and incapable of anything. I hate myself, and I don't understand how anyone in my life doesn't hate me, I must put up a good facade or something.
This semester is pushing me to my limits and I feel like I'm on the brink of it all. I just needed to vent this all out. I've cried countless times today. Nearly vomited 2-3 times. It really makes me want to buy SN, I'm miserable right now.
I struggled hard with a biology chapter today as well, spending 3 hours on a single chapter which is longer than I used to have to spend on chapters.
I'm worried, I'm worried that I'll get into university and not be able to do the classes. I'm worried that I'll fail college. I'm worried that even if I pass, I wont be able to land a job. Do I even want a job in the field now considering how hard the classes are? And then, if I didn't want a job in this field, what would I even do with my life? I can't be a failure forever, I'll have to change something or die if college, those are the only two real options I'll be facing.
I don't know, I feel utterly worthless, useless, and incapable of anything. I hate myself, and I don't understand how anyone in my life doesn't hate me, I must put up a good facade or something.
This semester is pushing me to my limits and I feel like I'm on the brink of it all. I just needed to vent this all out. I've cried countless times today. Nearly vomited 2-3 times. It really makes me want to buy SN, I'm miserable right now.