I'm such a clown *trigger warning self harm*

[BitterlyAlive]

I haven't really cut in a while. I cut my hips a day or two ago because I felt like shit and wanted to be numb again. In the meantime, I've been scratching myself pretty hard every damn day with scissors on my forearm. Lately it's been two or three times a day. It leaves marks for about half the day and hurts like crazy. I wish it bled, but that's okay I guess...

I feel like an overdramatic fool. And I feel like I'm not really self harming because I'm not really bleeding. And despite knowing better, I let myself fall into that line of thinking. It just makes me want to take a damn razor blade to my forearms and go crazy, because I piss myself off so much. But I'm too afraid of the attention from others. At least people don't seem to notice the scratches...

 

[Soulless Angel]

hurts like crazy? then you have self harmed
you took scissors to your body, despite how little it cut, you have self harmed
Mentally, physically you are self harming, you are not a over dramatic fool

I have day's I just graze my arms over and over, others I slice down harder just once or twice, I found a Stanley knife blade that I use

IF you ever cut more, ensure the blade//scissors are clean, ensure your wounds are cleaned up after, to lessen risk of infection, and look after yourself, self harm is a slippery slope

 

[BitterlyAlive]

hurts like crazy? then you have self harmed
you took scissors to your body, despite how little it cut, you have self harmed
Mentally, physically you are self harming, you are not a over dramatic fool

I have day's I just graze my arms over and over, others I slice down harder just once or twice, I found a Stanley knife blade that I use

IF you ever cut more, ensure the blade//scissors are clean, ensure your wounds are cleaned up after, to lessen risk of infection, and look after yourself, self harm is a slippery slope

Thank you. I hate this and i feel like I post about self harm too much or "for attention", when in reality I just feel like I'm faking. And thanks for the advice. It is a slippery slope indeed

 

[Soulless Angel]

Thank you. I hate this and i feel like I post about self harm too much or "for attention", when in reality I just feel like I'm faking. And thanks for the advice. It is a slippery slope indeed

when it comes to this forum, I don't think anything is ever done for attention, this place is the one place you can speak freely without judgement. I have been here since early 2019 (new name) and I have seen so many people post about self harm, and no one has ever been accused of attention seeking, if you want to talk about it then do so, if it helps then that's good. if it distracts you from doing yourself actual harm, then even better

 

[BitterlyAlive]

when it comes to this forum, I don't think anything is ever done for attention, this place is the one place you can speak freely without judgement. I have been here since early 2019 (new name) and I have seen so many people post about self harm, and no one has ever been accused of attention seeking, if you want to talk about it then do so, if it helps then that's good. if it distracts you from doing yourself actual harm, then even better

Thank you for your honesty. I'm not sure if it helps or not tbh. I feel really guilty when I talk about it. But at the same time, I shouldn't let my feelings cause me to avoid the issue.

 

[SipSop]

I don't use it politically but this is a safe space.
People support others because they have been through similar things and they need support in return. This kind of selfishness is fine I think. To speak about your problems is therapeutic, it brings small amounts healing to the wound when others notice you and approve of you. Also, it feels great when you share your experience and thoughts with others and it helps somehow. Things we do not receive in real world like kindness and compassion we usually receive here. Thats why we vent here and come back here. We know that there is a great chance somebody will understand us. Wich numbs the pain a little. It is not like real life interaction but knowing that there are other people at the end of the line is quite reassuring.
This is a fine place.