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Domff

New Member
Feb 11, 2025
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I'm the most stupidest stupid person!! In the World

Oh god, the amount of problems that I have! Man anybody else, EVERYBODY, everyone smart would have quit by now.

Where do I begin, bullied my entire childhood, never made friends, always was afraid, was always depressed. Family fought over property/inheritance, so never had love/care from Grandma/Grandpa or any relationship. Parents divorced when I was still kid, father vanished, had only mother.

At 19 mother died, no friends, no relations. Took hypertension, lost kidneys, on dialysis since age 20. COVID hit, poor diet, half-lost liver. Body weight went from 89kg at 19 age to 41kgs in just 4 months went I lost kidneys.

Was living somehow on the mercy and kindness of strangers who helped me with many things. Now after 4 years of living on dialysis, one meal a days and many problems.

In December I get stroke, unable to walk, bed ridden, no help, just waiting to die.

Lost job, Pg/hostel room due to not being able to pay rent, all my stuff is rotting on the roof until I pay rent.

Anyone, ANYONE with a brain would have quit this life long LOOONG ago. But me, a coward, afraid of the pain 🤦 of the S-word. Still willing bearing the pain of living. Man I wish, I WISH so badly I had the courage.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand finding it painful to exist, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot. But anyway I wish you the best.
 

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