i'm still here and I hate it

[deathisnear]

As some of you know, I was supposed to CTB last week. I'm a failure, I couldn't get it done. I hate myself. I'm angry at myself. I'm lost as it was the perfect opportunity. Fuck life, fuck everything. All I can think about is how I should be dead and not dealing with the BS of life and these constant thoughts. I'm still here and I HATE IT.

 

[healthrecovery]

Failure in life is worse than failure to ctb...

There are always more chances to ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would be frustrated. Of course suicide is very difficult after all, but no matter what the option to ctb is always there. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[miserableforever]

As some of you know, I was supposed to CTB last week. I'm a failure, I couldn't get it done. I hate myself. I'm angry at myself. I'm lost as it was the perfect opportunity. Fuck life, fuck everything. All I can think about is how I should be dead and not dealing with the BS of life and these constant thoughts. I'm still here and I HATE IT.

I'm sorry to hear that. You can try again at some point.

 

[deathisnear]

It's just that it felt like it should have been the day, it felt right, the weather was right, it was before xmas, i feel like a total failure more than i normally do. It's a weird feeling dealing with the world when you thought you'd be dead ... hopefully i can successfullly do it soon. I fucking hate everything